gRiNcH

Peace... a beautiful state of mind...

2010-07-05T05:35:00.004+05:30

It's a odd night to choose to reflect, an odd night to sit back, take a step away from the rat race, reflect on the happenings and view it objectively as a person disassociated from the events... I mean, barely hours back was the birthday of a close friend... we were celebrating, living it up as we usually do, the liquor flowing, the herbs glowing, the music an endless stream of beautiful sounds and balearic tunes...

That's how the past few weeks have gone, a non-stop race to try and juggle everything, making time and space for everything, try to cram it all in into every day that we live...fit in work hours, fit in after work hours with friends, fit in smoking time, fit in drinking time, fit in time to socialize, fit in time to sleep (albeit, that's the one taking the last priority)... it's been a blur, an endless routine as we try to make the most of every moment we live... it's been all about doing, doing and doing more...one moment you're working, the next you're smoking, the next you're lost in the music, the next you're cheering yourself hoarse watching the World Cup...in one instant from the match finishing, you realise you're walking back on the road, looking for the auto, trying to reach home and sleep so you can go back to office tomorrow and run the whole routine all over again...sure, there's nothing better than living this way, with the people you enjoy spending time with, making every moment count, enjoying every roll, every drop of liquor, every beat of the music, every push forward by the footballers... it seems perfect... and it is, it's perfect for the moment...

but a strange thing has been happening...for the life of me, I can't seem to remember the details of any of the matches I wanted, I can't seem to remember how the music sounded when we were listening to it just yesterday, I can't seem to remember the beauty of every roll we've smoked over the past few weeks... this when I could've sworn that at the time the match was on, there wasn't a single person more tuned in than us, none oscillating more deeply than us with the highs and lows of every match, there could've been nobody who was more deeply lost in their thoughts, taking in the elements of every roll we lit up... all I know is, when it was on, everything seemed perfect, it all seemed in place...

So today's the day of the strike and we were all going to be locked in starting at 6am...and through a combination of circumstances (mostly the need to visit home as I'd been away for 24 hours), at 1.30am I ended up going home, to freshen up, collect my things to pass through the day, with the intention of getting out in a few hours and going to my friends place to spend the rest of the day... and an odd thing happened...

I enter my home, I shut the door and all of a sudden, there was this feeling of all the noise in the world shutting out, complete silence, beautiful as it was serene... 15 mins later, I sat there listening to BT's 'These Hopeful Machines', the only light being the glow from the screen of the laptop, the weather cool enough to allow the hint of a breeze, the cool air from the pedestal fan coming in fits and starts as the fan oscillated back and forth, the comfort of my Camel Lights, the taste of a strong and chilled cold coffee and it seemed perfect... and then I realised the true value of peace... I was coming home every night, but always in a hurry...hurry to reach home, hurry to change clothes, hurry to hit the bed, hurry to get as many hours of slumber as possible given the constraints created by our recreational activities... but tonight was different, I was sitting peacefully, with no agenda, time on my hands and I felt at peace...

The beauty of solitary confinement is unparalleled, something that cannot be explained by a few words... when you enter your home, a place where you live alone, and you shut the door, the world vanishes away, you are left truly with yourself, free of all constraints...social contact, peer pressure, conventions, they all disappear as you truly come in contact with yourself... it scares some people, this solitary confinement, there are those who feel rattled at the very thought of being away from the world, and then there are those who revel in such moments, who love nothing more than to come back to your own empty home at the end of the day, to spend some quality time with yourself... the peace, the sheer calm that envelopes as you truly walk around with no strings attached, it's an experience to be had and as I sat there, I felt it...and this at a time when there was not a drop of liquor inside my system to make the world more beautiful, not even the remote hint of a herb to mellow the surroundings...It was the perfect feeling...

As I sat there, it felt like you'd put life on pause, asked it to hold on for a second while you reoriented yourself, while you sat and took a look around and assimilated all the events that had happened since the last time you put life on pause... It's beautiful for the way it allows you to grab a fresh perspective on things, analyse the events in your life with a perfectly relaxed brain...

Those 3 hours I spent at home, from 1.30am to 4.30am, doing mundane things, making coffee, enjoying the breeze, enjoying a smoke, folding my clothes, taking a shower in freezing cold water, all while listening to the beautiful sounds of music flowing through the whole house, with not a soul around but myself... it was a treat to experience, a beautiful passage of time, a time that truly was refreshing...

I now sit here, at my friends place, as the clock shows 6.30 am...there's the sound of Sunlounger's 'Downtempo Edition' flowing through the ears, a glass of BP with ice and chilled water to quench the thirst, the purity of the early morning blue sky through the windows, the cool post-dawn breeze and the brilliant taste of a Camel Light brown filter... there's really not much more a person can ask for and I feel at peace, recalibrated to go for the next few weeks, ready to get back in the race...

These words, they're not meant for anybody, they're meant for nobody... just a beautiful experience... a feeling of peace, complete peace...

Cheers

gRiNcH

Loyal to the ROYALS forever...!!!

2010-03-13T19:20:00.007+05:30

RR MOTTO: IT'S OVER WHEN WE GODDAMN SAY IT'S OVER
SHANE WARNE: WE BELIEVE WE CAN WIN FROM ANYWHERE

I'm back and there's only thing to write about...CRICKET and more specifically... the RAJASTHAN ROYALS!! i don't know how much you guys saw of the epic epic IPL match today between Mumbai Indians and Rajasthan Royals but if you saw it, you know exactly what's coming for the next couple of hundred (thousand??) words...

where do you start from?? A team that was bought for the cheapest price, a team that got penalized in the first season for NOT spending enough money on players, a team whose big names started and ended with Shane Warne and Graeme Smith...they said it was a pointless exercise, they said there was no hope...

and then it came about... SHANE WARNE, the man with the golden touch, the bond holding the team... he doesn't care about how many big names he has, he cares about having the guys he wants... Australian cricket's biggest loss - never making Warnie captain... at 40 years of age, that man has a fire never seen before...

and then the man, the demi-god, the powerhouse, the tall, grizzly lad from Gujarat who knows exactly how to give a bloody thrashing...YUSUF PATHAN... there's nearly not enough to write about him...

you want fear, you've got fear in the eyes of the fielding side...you want supreme confidence, you've got it in the eyes of the man himself...you want awe, the faces of the teammates, the opponents, the crowd at the stadium and the millions watching from wherever, you've got AWE written all over it...

212-6, a mammoth total by MI, RR in reply were timid...10 overs down, required rate's up to 15, a herculean task by anybody's standards...I'm sitting alone at home, watching as the hope is dying out...it's 3 balls into the over...143 needed of 57 balls...Yusuf Pathan decides enough is enough, I'm done with this nonsense and he launches into the opposition and by god, how he launched into them...Thus starts the most exhilarating 45 mins of my life...for the next 11 legal deliveries that he faced, each one, EACH GODDAMN ONE went into the boundary...the left-arm spinner, the medium-pacer and the fast bowler, Mortaza, Sathish and McLaren, the poor poor lads, they just happened to be in the wrong place at the wrong time in front of the wrong man...to be treated with such utter disdain, such complete disrespect, one of them can still be consoled by saying "in the long run, you're on his side"... when they go to sleep tonight, all 3 of them, they'll have nightmares, horrifying visions of a tall, powerful man with brutal murder in his eyes, going at them, channeling all the anger, all the fury straight into them, in front of their home crowd, in front of thousands of people, in front of the millions watching them, humiliating them, tearing them apart like an excited kid with a brand new box of candies, showing no mercy, no respite, none at all..

this is WAR and there's going to be collateral damage...

it was never about luck, save one small moment...it was skill, power, ruthlessness, the determination to win and ofcourse the striking, the beautiful, beautiful striking...the world has seen quite a few greats, each unique in their style...the most elegant of timers Ganguly, the technically sound Dravid, the ferocious ferocious Sehwag, the hungry for runs Brian Lara, the exquisite Ricky Ponting, the powerhouse that is Viv Richards, the most complete batsman ever that is Tendulkar, the awesome twosome Hayden and Gilchrist...but today, they all paled, they paled in comparison to YUSUF PATHAN...the timing, the technique, the ferocity, the hunger, the exquisiteness of the swing, the power in the hands, the cricket sense and the sheer capacity to clear grounds...he took all of the greats together and he showed what happens when you put it all together... you get a man who is unbeatable, who cannot be stopped, who cannot fail, you get...

YUSUF PATHAN!!!

the late great, the greatest, Sir Donald Bradman, had he been alive to witness this innings, he would surely have felt that the dominance he imposed in his time had come back, in it's contemporary and brutal avatar, it came back today for those 37 unforgettable deliveries that the elder Pathan faced today...

the cruel, cruel run-out...it was an inevatibility, it had to happen, the balance has to be maintained, the world has to be fair to both sides...for those who saw him play today, on the 13th of March 2010, they know, they know that that run-out was the only way Yusuf Pathan was leaving the pitch and walking back to the pavilion today, there was no other way for it to happen, such was the overpowering mood he was in today...

the opponents, they shivered in fear, they looked with awe, they cringed every time the ball hit the willow...the teammates, they just gaped, they cheered, Shane Warne chuckled at the thought of the opposition...the crowds, they went into a frenzy, on a batsman from an away team smashing them out of the park, they thundered with applause...such was the magnitude of the innings...

it's just the first match, there's 13 more to go and if Yusuf Pathan can keep up what he's been doing all through this season of cricket, in the domestic league and today, then the ROYALS are heading back, back to the throne atop the IPL which they rightfully claimed 2 years back...

to all the RR supporters, CHEERS to the start of an insane IPL season!!!

may the ROYALS rule, and rule alone...
PEACE

P.S. - excerpts from some of the other cricketers:

Navjot Singh Sidhu - "Since the time I was 7 years of age and my dad put a bat in my hand, in those 35-odd years, after having seen Viv Richards play some memorable innings, after having seen Sachin's innings in the desert, in all these years of cricket, I have never seen something like this ever"

Shane Warne - "In 20-odd years of playing cricket, I have seen some great innings, I have seen Sachin smash all of us all over the ground for years, but I have never seen an innings like this"

gRiNcH <3 RAJASTHAN ROYALS

Indian Cricket, an Emotional Upheaval Unlike Any Other!!!

2009-11-05T22:50:00.008+05:30

it's 10.50 PM and this is it, today finally the anger spills over...just finished watching the 5th ODI between Australia and India and if you didn't watch it, don't read this, you just won't get it...in India, we treat cricket as religion but is it really our fault?

How can you not when you have people like Sachin who perform acts that are nothing short of miraculous, to keep playing for 20 years and still have the insatiable thirst for runs? When a man who is 36, considered normally the fag end of a batsman's career (specially when you've been playing since 16) turns up on the day and scores 170+ at a rate normally reserved for the young guns of cricket, drags the whole team one 6 away from the finish line, against all odds, can you really blame us for the emotional highs and lows that govern the life of every Indian cricket follower?

But this is not an ode to Sachin, it's an outburst against Indian cricket and the mentality of the players...

'Australianism': a single-minded determination to win - to win within the laws but, if necessary, to the last limit within them. (a quote by John Arlott made in the golden years of Bradman)

'Indianism': To inspire 1.1 billion people with their acts but at the end of the day, with the exception of a few greats, play for personal glory and not for the greater good.

It's 5 matches down in the series and you have to wonder, Australia have lost half their first XI to injuries and yet they manage to win. Are we really that bad?

India almost lost the first match but came back splendidly thanks to a memorable knock by Bhajji and Praveen Kumar but when it came to the crunch, 9 runs off the last over, the team buckled under pressure. We won the 2nd and 3rd but then again in the 4th, on a belter of a track, bowled splendidly to get Aus out for 250. What happened that time? Why did we lose then? Because complacency is an Indian mentality, 250 runs on a pure batting track and everybody took it lightly, it was up to Bhajji and Praveen Kumar again to try and drag the team across but we fell short yet again.

And then today, how can you describe a match that gives you immeasurable pride in being called an Indian and yet utter disgust at the same time. We've got Aus well roped in, 160 at the end of 30 overs and they end up scoring 190 in the last 20 overs. WHY?? We chase, the top-order loses its way, Sehwag does his blitzkreig, flash-in-the-pan 30-odd run routine and gets out, time to take some accountability buddy. Sachin and Raina almost pull off a miracle, scoring at a constant 7 runs an over, throughout the middle overs but then, in one moment of glory, all is lost. Raina goes out to a shot that had no business being there, Bhajji after showing the great temperament and skill in the past 4 matches, acts stupid on the one day the team needs him, not just for India but to justify Sachin's epic knock. Jadeja has no business playing in international cricket, he can't handle the pressure, the past 4 matches have shown it, he either can't score or if he ends up scoring, he gets into the 'personal glory' mode and gets run out because he's so eager to be in the spotlight. I mean which player, commentator, spectator can justify the two times he's got run out?? Was there ever a run in there? But no, we play for ourselves. How can you? After watching one of the most memorable knocks to be played by any batsman, with odds stacked heavily against, how can you forget the big picture and live for yourself??

If the Indian team management doesn't have the sense to throw this kid out and get somebody like one of the Pathan brothers or Kaif or anybody who can handle pressure, then you know what, we deserve it, we deserve to come so close and yet lose everytime.

And then come the glorious two, the no. 10 and no. 11 of indian batting. Don't they feel humiliated by the way they bat? To watch Bhajji come across the years and improve his batting the way he has, doesn't it inspire them to do something about it? But no, they feel that if they've come out to bat, the match is over, let's just have some fun, hit a coupla shots, if they connect, our batting avg will jump from 4.5 to 7.5 and if they don't, it doesn't matter, nobody expects anything of us anyways. This is where the difference between world runners-up and the world champions comes in.

They fight, they fight, and they don't let go till the last run is made or the last wicket is gone. They believe, they believe that they can come back from any situation, it's what makes them world champions. To be defending 350, have the opposition 4 wickets down for a paltry sum and still show the kind of determination in the field that they do, can we really say that they don't deserve to win? To be playing a half second-bench team means nothing to them, because they all believe that they all belong to the first XI.

And who suffers the most in this extraordinarily volatile epic?? The Indian fan, they believe, to have 1.1 billion people believe and be treated this way is not fair. The fans who switched off the match when 4 wickets went down were deprived of one of the greatest moments in world cricket and yet spared one of the biggest heartbreaks in Indian cricket. Because for those of us who watched, we were in the lows, Raina and Sachin pulled us out of the abyss, made us believe, took us to an emotional high we didn't know we had and then we fell, fell hard. The saying holds true... "the higher you go, the harder you fall." Today exemplified it brilliantly, nothing could be truer. To watch two players play hard, play with heart, play with a single-minded determination to win and then see the rest come out and emit a vibe of purposelessness, hurts like nobody can tell. This kind of emotional upheaval shows some unseen things, the quiet and reserved fan showing fury, anger at the loss...the aggressive fan showing absolute and utter despair, the medical teams should be put on high alert everytime India gets into a close match because you know it's war, and there's gonna be collateral damage. People might ask, why, why do you behave this way, who asks you to take cricket so seriously. I have one answer for them.

BECAUSE THOSE 11 MEN IN BLUE OUT THERE, MAKE US BELIEVE.

Just an outburst of frustration by another ordinary Indian cricket fan.

Peace

gRiNcH <3 the MEN IN BLUE (irrespective of whatever happens)

failure...accepting it...

2009-06-15T01:54:00.001+05:30

so it's 1.38 am and i'm posting two times in two days...it's kinda like a continuation of the last post...so that was about wondering how long it takes to reach the point where you stop getting punished for your mistake and you get the chance to set it right...this one is a different perspective...it's about learning when to know you can't set something right and accept it and just live with the fact that you made a mistake and such is life...

so you made a mistake, you spent the time repenting it, you made a few efforts to set it right, didn't work, time passes by and you still feel that no, the wish to set it right is still there...so you try again and then you try again and you keep trying...when do u stop?? when do you let go?? or do you let go??

i put in my bit, i spent time repenting it, 3 years is a bloody long time...i've changed as a person along d way, from having a perfect life to hating myself for what i'd become to trying hard to turn myself around and go back to being somebody i could be comfortable with, it's all happened...it's done...i tried to set things right, i did really, didn't work, only difference this time i don't feel like trying again, i think it's time to let go, let it be, accept it as a permanent failure...maybe it's best that way, maybe there is a reason to this, maybe it's supposed to be this way so it serves as a reminder to me for the future...maybe it's supposed to hurt to make sure it never happens again...whatever be the reason, it's done, it's over...

there are some mistakes u can set right and then there are mistakes that you can't...this is the latter...accepting failure...

gRiNcH

Mistakes, they just don't get off your back...

2009-06-14T06:19:00.002+05:30

so it's 6:19 am and i've just started writing another one...it's slightly different this time though coz i've got two of my close friends in the same room and we're playing poker on facebook...but I really feel like saying this out loud so i'm just gonna go ahead an write it anyways...how long does it take to stop getting punished for ur mistake and actually get an opportunity to set it right?? the person with relation to whom this is being written is prolly never gonna read this anyways but to hell with that, this ain't about that, it's about just saying it aloud...so again, HOW LONG DOES ONE GET PUNISHED FOR THEIR MISTAKES AND HOW LONG DOES IT TAKE TO GET TO THE POINT WHERE YOU CAN SET IT RIGHT??

orite, so i'm i dunno how many glasses of black label down and the words are fading in front of me on the screen, but don't discount this post because of that, the thought process is still damn clear in the head...the timing of this post kinda coincides with the birthday of that relevant person but anyways, the point is again...how long??

so I made a mistake long back, been 3 years to that mistake and not one day has gone by that I haven't repented it...sure I've carried on with my life, I'm not saying I've been stuck to that and am on the point of breaking apart but still, not one night that I haven't thought about it, not one night that I haven't kicked myself for it...but seriously, it's been long enough man, gimme a chance, let me set it right?? i'm not asking for things to go back the way they were, not only would that be unreasonable, it's also not what I want, I just wanna set things right...I hate miscommunication and misunderstandings...

so if there's any power out there that has the power to do anything, do this...I deserve the chance...and if the person in question actually ends up reading this, then you know I deserve the chance, I'm not asking for anything extraordinary, just lemme set things right...I also believe I deserve an explanation for the way we left things, I never got that answer, I think I deserve it...

anyways, enough of rambling, i've lost enough money while writing this post...let's get back to what we have in hand, rather than cribbing about what we lost...

ciaos

gRiNcH

I have nothing to say!!!

2009-05-16T05:04:00.003+05:30

so it's 5:04 am and i haven't blogged in over half a year...sometimes i wanted to but didn't have the opportunity, sometimes i had the opportunity, just didn't feel like it...sometimes i wanted to and had the net available but procrastination got the better of me...the only reason i sat down to write right now is the fact that it's 5 in d morning, i have to be out by 5.45 and i couldn't get myself to sleep tonight and have been looking for ways to kill time...normally that wouldn't seem a problem considering the plethora of TV serials and random movies at my disposal but didn't feel like that...so now i'm facing the biggest crisis to have come across my life in a while...

I HAVE STARTED WRITING A POST BUT HAVE NOTHING TO WRITE ABOUT!!!

so what are my options...

a) Write another post on how life has changed and how I have changed in the past 3 years of my life - blah blah blah blah, boring boring boring...
b) Write a post on how I am about to enter the real world and how I am scared - blah blah blah, besides do I really wanna make myself feel worse??
c) Write the next part to Music is LIFE!!! - not a bad idea actually but maybe next time (procrasination at work again, :D) plus I've kinda been out of the whole new music scene really
d) Write another post on some specific person in my life or the other, outlining the story and ending it by showing my mistake - been there, done that, and I think i've finally run out of mistakes I've made regarding other people...
e) Write something short, snappy, like make a list of something... - interesting, could be fun, something new...

so I think we managed to close it down to c and e and between the two of them, i'm gonna go with e...so the next question is, make a list of what?? answer: just keep writing down whatever thoughts come into your mind...could be fun...

a) A State of Trance Year Mix 2008 CD1 - Lost (Wanna hear it loud and very loud, like hostel loud)
b) Till the sky falls down - Dash Berlin (Listening to it right now, wanna hear it really loud, with some maddening bass)
c) Go to play squash in 30 mins - (Try and play for over an hour today, eat powerbars and don't smoke before playing, make sure it happens)
d) GTA IV - (Gotta finish the game, high time, enough is enough, 15 GB is way too much space to leave lying utilised)
e) Club 4-nought-1 (401) of the St. Xavier's College Hostel - (gonna miss my room, miss d hostel life, d loud music, d 24\7 activity, d mad hostelmates, d eating on d floor, d gross sense of humour floating around)
f) Who is watching (Cosmic Gate remix) - (Track just changed on the notebook, what an insane progression, mad track)
g) Celtic female voice on all the electronic tracks, bloody surreal - (have to once date a chick who has that kind of a voice)
h) VS4121 - (The culprit in spoiling me for music, my brilliant speakers, have to get them back from the hostel, set them up here)
i) ABCD EFGHIJ* - (need one chance to tell that person how much our friendship would mean)
j) EFGH IJKLMNO* - (have to spend some time with this person, some quality time, last opportunity)
k) Sleeping pills - (have to research about them, do they work, need something to get me to sleep at 1 am every night)
l) Insomnia - (not talking about the track, sleeplessness, is too mad, bombay's gonna be mad this time, last 5 days of college, not gonna sleep a bit)
m) Lost - Zara (A State of Trance Year Mix 2008 CD 1 at 27mins) - (what an insane track, have to attend an authentic electronic concert in Ibiza or at Rio or let's face reality, mostly at Sunburn 2009 :D)
n) Toblerone - (Having one right now, not good, shouldn't be having but what the heck, life is all about the temptations)
o) 5.36 am - (time to give my squash partner a wake-up call, i'll delay it)
p) cigarette - (need one, gonna go catch one)
q) burning eyes - (not the track, state of my eyes right now)
r) lethargy - (d most frustrating feeling in the world)
s) the internet is too addictive - (need to break my relationship with the internet or atleast make it more casual and not so clingy)
t) T20 - (yay, RR won their last match, have to win the remaining two as well, RR are IPL 2009 champions as well :D)
u) Wireless world - (hate the tangling of cables and wires everywhere, need a wireless world)
v) Victory * lol lol lol lol, hahahahahahaha - (what's up dude, haven't met in a bit, have to catch up)
w) SUARRRR - (u bitch, u been in town for a coupla days now, let's fucking meet up)
x) Aimless wandering - (have no plans for the day, just aimlessly roaming about)
y) No plans for the future??? - (gotta decide, have to make up my mind soon)
z) time to bloody head, snap out of the sofa, go play

Lol, this was supposed to be short and snappy...too funny...

NOTE - * - names have been changed to protect the original :P

ciaos
gRiNcH <3 Randomness

Change...

2008-10-23T00:00:00.006+05:30

hey, don't exactly know what's quite happening, all I know is life is changing at a superfast pace and I am changing (or have changed) at the same speed if not faster. Weird things are happening with me, I guess the process started about 5 months back.

Normally people are bound to change when they leave their home to pursue education outside (another city, maybe another country) as it's going to put them in charge of their life in a way that living at home could never have done. You become responsible, you learn the ways of the world, you learn to take care of your belongings, random stuff like that. That is the good change that happens in a person.

Also, people also change\grow up each time they are faced with a major hurdle in life which has to be crossed. As a kid, the first hurdle is perhaps your 10th Boards, the next being the 12th Boards. Each time you come across one of these, the process of overcoming these hurdles is long and cumbersome. Maybe it would be wrong to call them hurdles, let's just call them 'days of reckoning'. Facing each of these 'days of reckoning' brings about a certain change in the person, a change which is normally labelled maturity. The gravity of the situation sinks in, you get serious about it and you grow up. Normally maturity is associated with learning to keep quiet, being able to absorb what the other person is saying, behaving in a dignified manner (or one which befits your age) and true enough, all these things normally happen when a person goes through one of these life-altering events. I guess this could also be considered a positive event.

But in my life and in my experience, none of this comes remotely close to what I am facing in my graduating year. It's brought along all the uncertainty that comes with entering uncharted territory. The uncertainty has brought about a lot of changes in me (don't exactly know which ones can be called positive and which ones negative). The uncertainty is playing on my mind so much that I've more often than not, been accused of being spaced out\lost in my own world, even when with sitting with my friends or anybody for that matter. It's not that I'm always thinking about it but it's always at the back of my mind, it's always there, it refuses to go away, it's changed me as a person and to a great extent at that. I refuse to go out of my way to be accommodating or be social with people, I still enjoy the company of my friends and people I hang out with but I refuse to spend time with as many people as I used to, I've become comfortable in my own setup so much that I make efforts to stay within that. If I ever wonder why I didn't put in the extra effort and do something else, I just put up the wall of excuse reading 'I need my peace of mind, I don't want to do anything that I don't feel comfortable with, I want to have my way, it's my graduating year, I'm giving CAT, I need my space' and continue life the way I am leading.

While I don't say that the reasons are irrelevant (they most definitely are relevant and absolutely correct), I do wonder if it's correct for me to be so self-centred. I could argue that it's correct because it's my butt that's on the line, I have to achieve something in the next few months if I want to get successful fast but there is always a nagging feeling at the back which I guess can be attributed to my conscience. Most conversations around me seem to irritate me as I try to understand how somebody can sit and discuss perhaps the next episode of heroes or their most recent shopping exploit or just want to sit and plain make small talk when there is the larger issue of our career at stake here and more often than not I don't make an effort to hide my irritation. It's led me to become a selective recluse which could be misinterpreted as growing up, becoming mature. Maybe it is that cause I seem to find most talk around me childish and irrelevant and petty but if that is the view that one starts to have of things around u as they grow up, is that the adult I wanna become? Do I want to become so grown up that I look down upon all those around me who perhaps have been able to retain some of the zest of youth and refuse to be bogged down by the responsibilities of adulthood and are able to still be happy-go-lucky? Should the fact that my friends do not feel like discussing the global recession and not discuss the presidential race in the US make me have an opinion of them which is negative?

But on the other hand, I can't help but feel irritated(i need a synonym!! I've used it too many times in this post...) when people I know who're on the same step of life as me, who themselves also have to fight to make sure they don't join the queue titled 'UNEMPLOYED' one year from now, sit and discuss about how the day went and make small talk not because they don't feel like discussing the topics above but because they're so outta sync that they have no clue of what's happening around in the world. Somehow it gets on my nerves even more when the people in question are people close to me, people I'm genuinely concerned about and who I don't want to see sit around a year from now and wonder "what if we'd actually given a shit at that time and bothered to think about life??" Do I tell them?? and if I do, how many times do I?? I don't mind the showing the irritation part when the people in question are not important to me, I just go off and couldn't care as long as they don't impede upon my peace of mind but what about the ones who do matter?? What do you do then??

Another difference is not wanting to make conversation all the time, relevant or otherwise, and being comfortable in silence or stillness, no restlessness, which is also considered an example of growing up or maturing...sometimes nowadays, more often than earlier, I want to sit and just remain quiet, for example if you're online and some friend is online as well, the need to make conversation is no longer there, you're comfortable in silence as well...in fact sometimes you want the comfort of silence and then if somebody keeps tries to make conversation for whatever reasons of their own (boredom, feeling uncomfortable in silence, effort to be social), my nerves start sending me 'GETTING ON US' signals and 'GIVE SPACE' signals which you can't ignore and end up having to act anti-social. One is also tempted to wonder why the other person, roughly the same age, is not as grown up as you and why that person acts so kiddish. Is all this part of growing up? Is lack of tolerance of jarring (also might be known as insolent\pre-pubescent\adolescent\immature) behaviour and immediate branding of people exhibiting such behaviour part of growing up??

Questions, questions and more questions...perhaps in time, the answers shall dawn upon me...

Hmmm...

gRiNcH

the gRiNcH is back...

2008-08-28T23:53:00.002+05:30

so it's been a long while and lots has happened in the meantime, wanted to write a lot but just hasn't been happening...just checked in online coupla days back and had a question from a blogger friend asking if I was planning to update and it kinda hit me that there were people who read the blog (i'm NOT trying to be modest). I mean it's not like a person blogs because people wanna read it but you kinda feel like writing more when you know there are people out there who'd like to read some more(thanks deepshikha). So I'm gonna hopefully get back to posting regularly, even if sometimes it's just something random like a movie review or something of the kind.

Anyways, getting to this post, life's been ok, been chilling mostly, TY’s on (Third Year for the uninitiated), not like there’s much to talk about there, classes are just plain boring, there’s no compulsion to attend them and incase u happen to go for one, there’s no compulsion to pay attention in it so it kinda gives a feeling of being wasted during the day. The afternoons have become interesting as my room is now pimped up (got an insane set of 2.1 speakers) and some mad innovative wiring solutions so now even though my room’s got more stuff than it did last year, it looks even neater and hence, there is some good electronic music blasting through the afternoon\evenings (having good quality sound from your music really cheers you up). The evenings and the consequent nights are by far the best part of the day as the evenings mostly consist of CAT classes and at nights all us hostelites mostly chill out and randomly eat from some really good place. All in all I’d say life is going well but it’s all overshadowed by the pressure of doing something worthwhile in the next 7-8 months lest the monster of unemployment eat me up post graduation.

This omnipresent pressure can be felt everywhere and by everybody who’s in their graduating year. As most of the people prepare for the deluge of management entrance examinations about to hit us starting in mid-November and others look at other options like securing a placement or giving GRE, GMAT and the like to go abroad where it’s relatively easier to get into the top layer of colleges like LSE, Oxford and Cambridge, everybody’s scurrying about trying to get a plan. The uncertainty of the future a year from now overshadows all actions and all conversations nowadays.

Sometimes you wonder that you finished schooling and straight got into college, finishing college, straight getting into further studies or jobs and eventually finish post-graduation and get into the job market, waiting to be picked up by some MNC with a fancy name and a fancier pay packet and once your job starts, your life is pretty much headed on the highway with no stops. Look at it this way right now and you wonder when do you get time to do something with your life, something which you enjoy, something akin to taking a break. There really is no out from the rat race. The only people who actually end up getting outta this are the ones who’re assured of the fact that they’re gonna be handed over the mantle of the family business and hence there is no need to prove yourself in your education or prove your competence by slugging it out in the job market. Even then it’s only a temporary illusion and nowadays more and more families are asking their heir-apparent to first show some mettle and then come back to the business.
Since you cannot take a break from the routine called life, perhaps the solution lies in being able to pace yourself and being able to prioritise such that you can manage your interests along with your career\education needs. Maybe the solution lies in chilling in the first two years of your college and trying to enjoy whatever it has to offer you and then getting back into the rat race in the final year.

Either ways, life seems to be working itself out for me pretty much at the moment and been kinda fortunate in whatever’s happened with me this year, have been taking the right decisions uptil now even if only by chance sometimes. Choosing not to participate in my college fest, changing rooms in my hostel, having all emotional bonds snapped, choosing the correct CAT classes to go for , etc. It’s just all worked out perfectly uptil now and I’m hoping this streak continues for the next 8 months at the least.

Feels good to be back to writing, if only aimlessly.

Looking forward to a successful year and hope all you out there have the same.

Ciaos
gRiNcH

The Pilgrimage Part 2... God is a Dj!!!

2008-04-25T01:17:00.011+05:30

Here I am, finally writing perhaps the post which will take the most out of me for I simply cannot afford to err on this, it has to be perfect, there can be no flaw, there can be no lack of expression. It has to be perfect, afterall it is a tribute to GOD a.k.a. Tiësto.

I felt this symbol of God was essential for starting this post, not just coz it is God's expression of freedom but also coz it is this symbol which ruled the best night of my life. So here it goes, it's been long in the pipeline, I've had some people giving me gentle feelers that this post better come fast and some not so gentle persuading but this post had to be perfect, the mood had to be there, it had to be right.

Also, I had to find all the videos to correspond with my post and I'm glad to announce that thanks to Youtube, each one of those events have been found...

This is a statutory warning for all those who are going to read this post beyond this line...

HIGH-SPEED BROADBAND REQUIRED

The above laid symbol says it all...if you're listening to something by this God, there is no way you can't feel the magic, or in God's words, Magik...

Picking up from where I left off...

I walked into the stadium and there was a feeling of calm setting over me, it was finally here, the night I'd dreamt about for almost 4 years now, the one night I would have done anything for, it was here and I was in it...As I walked down the road from the gate to the stadium, there was an awkward schoolboyish nervousness gripping me, I felt like jumping up in the air and screaming and punching the air, it was amazing.

So i walked down the road and there was this line of people standing at one entry gate into the stadium and I joined them. Then I heard somebody asking if this was the line to the VIP tickets. Somebody replied no but nobody knew where the entry for VIP tickets was. I circled around the entire stadium and found the entrance, went in, it was so empty, a coupla guys checking the ticket and that's it. He saw my ticket and allowed me to enter. I walked into the stadium and there I was, on God's dance floor tonight...

It was empty and there was a small enclosure made right in front of me which I presumed to be the enclosure for the VIP tickets and entered it. The stand was deserted but for one bald guy who I presumed was just as crazy as me to come in so early. I looked around and was slightly disappointed for these VIP enclosures were not closer to the main console, like the lady on the phone had confirmed, in fact they were on the side and the INR 2,000 tickets, the cheapest ones were infact right infront of where God would be standing in a few hours.

15 minutes went past and I happened to strike up a conversation with the bald guy who, to start my night of coincidences, happened to be from Mumbai and had come down with his friends just for this night. As we talked, he happened to mention, and I happened to behave as if I already knew, that this was not only the VIP enclosure but the Soul Gallery enclosure to which the tickets were INR 10,000, the tickets with the unlimited drinks and snacks!!! This was just getting better and better. I looked around me and sure enough, there was an entire bucket kept with ice and Power Horse cans in it and a group of guys setting up the food and drinks just on the railing to keep handing out. I walked over and asked the guy at the drinks counter to gimme a coke and we got talking and Lo and Behold!, guess what?? he turned out to be from Mumbai as well, a youngster who'd just finished his bartending school and had taken up this job only so that he could get to attend this concert!!!! bloody hell, how lucky can you get?? You get to listen to God and get PAID FOR IT!!!

anyways, people had started filling in by now and it had reached 9 PM when we heard the first sounds. turned around to look and saw that the local Dj, Moorty I think his name was, had started the opening set.

Oh, incase I forgot to mention how the stage looked, I won't go into it, I got a pic of it, take a look

Needless to say, it looked great. There was a slight pang of disappointment for I'd expected the famous disc model of the console which is so prominent in his concerts but then I reminded myself that was Amsterdam and a closed dome with the works, this was Hyderabad and an open stadium. It still looked great. The opening set was nothing great, just for warming up purposes and the sound had barely been turned up to half-levels. I whiled away the time by eating some great non veg and having coke (clean, nothing in it :P) and soon enough, IT WAS TIME...

the time had come...moorthy had gone off and God was about to come, we saw him walking to the stage, my first glimpse of God, it was amazing, it sent a rush of adrenaline to my veins, it was crazy...it was finally happening, I couldn't believe it...

he came onto the stage and a cheer was let out from the 20,000+ crowd that had assembled in that stadium to watch God play his music...the lights went out and the screens went blank...and then started the best 3 hours of my life...

it all started with the opening, watch it...

as the screens flashed on and there came the wings, the sign that denoted freedom and expression and God all together in one single shot...the effect was too much to take, it was insane...

and then the music came on, louder than what had been playing, to a level that made me truly feel like something special. God had arrived and he had decided to start the party with the title track of his tour, the hair-raising anthem 'Elements of Life' . Now i'm sure all of you reading this have heard the track (incase you haven't, go listen to his album right now and then resume reading this) but go ahead, listen to it again, and imagine an open stadium, 20,000+ fans chanting God's name in unison, pitch darkness and in the middle of it a video display with the logo flashing and the anthem starting, the beginning tune and then the kick...man, it was, can't find another word, ORGASMIC...

The party had started and God was playing, it was insane. The videos on the display were beautifully choreographed, some of the most amazing pan views of the snow mountains and deserts and forests and ice beds, all moving in unison with the music, hats off to the production department. To give you an idea of how amazing the video setup was, watch this short video...

The next crazy moment came when 15 mins into the concert, the video flashed a photo of close-up of God, it was like one pic being rotated slowly and slowly and the crowd went ballistic, I couldn't stop screaming and jumping.

The only problem was I was on the sides and the music was centred in the middle and I couldn't get a close view of God. Then I noticed a guy who'd jumped outta the VIP enclosure and had gone into the main crowd coz he couldn't get a good enough view from here. I didn't attempt to jump(not with my size I wouldn't) but I ran all around the stadium to enter from the main entrance for the lesser priced tickets and I can't remember another time when I've managed to run so fast...

Finally reached the centre, right in front of God's workplace and the music was sounding WOW, it was going through the ears and hitting the brain, doing things only God's music could've done...

As we watched, the display started flashing names of cities, the cities that were part of his EOL tour and it went on for 5 mins with all the main cities of the world being covered but there was no mention of India or Hyderabad. The crowd started to get restless and the music was slowly calming down and then outta the blue, in big bold on the screen,

HYDERABAD

the crowd lost it, they couldn't stop screaming, I myself was running outta breath from screaming out so loud. Here, watch it...

Then and there, He proved why he is and always will be the No. 1 Dj of the world and more importantly, why his music has the power to uplift any person on the face of this earth. As soon as the screen flashed Hyderabad, God shifted gears and upped the tempo of the music, took it on a high again and you learnt right there the amazing way in which he can keep a finger on the pulse of the audience and judge it perfectly, it was a stroke of genius...

so there we went, the audience, mere puppets playing along and going up and down with the tempo of the music God was dishing out, almost as if like in a trance following a Pied Piper...

As I was trying to slowly push and pull and get as head as I could, I was trying to take a video of God and this young guy next to me looked at me and said "You're never gonna forget this night!!" and I looked back at him and told him "You're telling me?? I'm the biggest fan of God you have ever seen".

He looked at me, smiled as if to forgive my innocence and pointed to a guy standing slightly ahead of us and said "Not you, it's him, he's the biggest fan of God ever". Not about to let this title get away from me, I confidently declared that I was frm Mumbai and had come down just for the concert. He looked back at me with surprise and declared that he and his friends were also, infact, from Mumbai and had come down only for the concert. Looking to go one up, he told me that they'd bought the VIP ticket but didn't get a great view from there so they had jumped over and come into the common area. I was flabbergasted yet quickly enough replied that I had done the exact same thing and the moment he heard it, the victorious smile was wiped off his face. It turned into a friendly banter and both of us started listening to God, a strange acquaintanceship created in the middle of nowhere...

In the middle of all this God decided he wasn't happy with the effect he was having on us so he decided to blow us apart for the next one hour and blow us he did. The high point of the party came when he played Love Comes Again, Just Be and Traffic all in a row. I could try my level best but I wouldn't be able to really put across to you the thought going inside my head and the rush of adrenalin I was feeling, it was crazy...

I had never thought that even in India, you could have an entire crowd sing along with Love Comes Again but that's exactly what they did, everybody was singing along, everybody knew the lyrics perfectly, it was a memorable sight...

After this peak of energy God slowly started to lower the tempo of the music and just as we were wondering when it would pick up, He came up with this track, one I've never heard before and which I can't identify still but the tune is, again, ORGASMIC...

The tune was beautiful and the effect it had on the crowd was amazing. He took off from this track and kept going and the crowd started to wonder if he would play any other tracks from EOL when, almost as if possessing a psychic connection with the crowd, the lights dimmed and he played a vocal version of 'In the Dark' to pick it up....check it out...

He again picked up the tempo with 'In the Dark' and rode it straight into 'Dance 4 Life', his anthem with a social cause. The crowd was riding on a series of waves, going through the highs and lows with the music, all control relinquished to the orchestrator, the Pied Piper, God, Tiësto...

The time had flown by at lightning speed and it had drawn close to 1 am, the deadline for the party to shut down...God slowly started to tone down the music but he must've felt that the crowd was missing something coz he then pulled out his masterstroke, the 2nd best closing\opening to a set by God...he played 'Adagio for Strings'...and this one i'm extremely lucky to get an excellent quality video with super audio....you cannot miss this, you have to watch this video even if you didn't the other ones...

As he closed the set and turned off the music, a sinking feeling swept over me, it was over, the best night of my life had just come to and end and it had lasted 3 hours...All that was left was the thought that tonight was special, it was when I came face to face with God, when I danced to God's music, tonight was simply MAGIK...

To end this, I'll say...God came, God played, God CONQUERED!!!

Here's a wallpaper which I feel is what He is truly about...

JUST BE guys, live life to the max...

I'll finish this with a few posters of God that are just awesome...

In case any of you feel you can still take a bit more of God at Hyderabad, here is a good video...

Hope you guys enjoyed it, I know whatever I've written does not even describe a small fraction of how it felt being there but I'm sure you guys understand...

Thx,

ciaos...

gRiNcH <3 Tiësto

P.S. ---> You are allowed to post comments in case you like the post... :P

*Edit* An insanely infuriating thing was the way the tickets for the concert were given out to losers. While I was in the Soul Gallery, I heard this son of a bitch talking on the phone and this were his words, I kid you not "arre, tu bhi aaja, mere ko 10 hazaar wala pass 6 mein mil gaya, tu bhi aaja, khana and drinks free hai...arre, koi party hai, koi dj hai, tiesto ya koi, kuch india ka no. 1 ya kuch, aaja, tu bhi aaja, peeyenge baith ke" OMFG, if I'd had my way that time, I would've kicked the shit outta that bastard...This is why this fucking country doesn't have good entertainment, coz the ppl who come for these things r d ones who don't value it and get their tickets for free...

oh, and a strange thing noticed, most of the crowd that was there to actually appreciate God were all outstations, the localites were those who were in the galleries who'd just come coz it had become a cool thing and wanted to be on Page 3 and be able to say they went for a concert. I'm sure there were a few localites in d crowd as well but mostly it was this bunch of posers.

Really Sad!!!

The Pilgrimage...Part 1(Stairway to Heaven)

2008-02-17T03:45:00.005+05:30

so it's 3.46 am and the best night of my life yet has come to an end...i wouldn't have been able to figure a term or give this post a title but for the help of one of my closest friends(love u sonal) who said "I'll see ya once ur back from your PILGRIMAGE" and it got me on that track that yes, it is like a pilgrimage, kinda like a trip taken to enlighten yourself, to have a rendezvous with GOD...and that's exactly what it was, a trip which enlightened me and let me have a rendezvous with GOD and watch him at work...

In case you're wondering what I'm talking about, it's about my trip to Hyderabad(which is where i sit right now as I address you) to watch my GOD, Dj Tiësto as he came on his maiden trip to India...His coming to India had been talked about for the past few months now and infact, a website even said he was coming to New Delhi, Bangalore and Mumbai...but as it turned out he finally decided to come to Hyderabad...

I still remember that day, it was around 9 in d night when my cousin from Hyderabad messaged me saying "Bro, tiesto's coming to Hyderabad man, officially confirmed, it's on his site"...I barely remember what dinner I ate that night, it all went like a blur...I finished my food in record time and almost ran across to Webworld to just make it before they closed down...I remember opening the official site, www.tiesto.com, and going onto the schedules and I still vividly recall how as i scrolled down the schedule page and i found there, unbelievable, in front of my eyes... 16 Feb, Gachi Bowli Stadium, Hyderabad... When I saw it, I automatically gave such a loud shout of excitement and punched the air, that people around turned to look and wondered what the hell was wrong with this kid...But who cared, I remember walking out of Webworld that night and going for the walk while calling up every fucking body close to me who knew who my GOD was and screaming shouting, jumping in the air and walking on the roads with no care to oncoming traffic or increasing phone bills...Now that I think back on it, I'm glad I managed to survive that night without any accidents considering the state I was in...

so finally, it was decided, called up the ticket helpline, checked the types of tickets and all that and to cut a long story short, I bought the VIP ticket worth INR 5,000 which included 4 complimentary drinks and limited snacks...I had decided to leave on the 15th of February, take a bus down to Hyderabad which would reach me on the 16th morning...By the time the due date arrived, I was unfortunately the only one outta my friends circle going and it would be a lonely 16 hour bus journey that I would have to make...But like I cared, it was to meet GOD and I'd do anything for it...so on 15th Feb, I was all ready, packed bags and bus to board with only 1 hour of sleep the previous night(thanks to some 'good shit' :P) and ready for the journey that was to lead me to my 4-year old dream...

The bus was supposed to start at 7 pm from right next to college and was supposed to take 15-16 hours to reach Hyderabad...When I finally sat down in the bus, I was kinda hesitant, long journey, all alone, boring...But the thought of going to meet God kept me going...The bus took off and I went off to sleep...Woke up after a coupla hours and saw the bus was still trying to leave the city limits only, hadn't turned onto the highway as yet...that's when my friend made the reference to the pilgrimage and I went off to sleep again...woke up at 11.30 pm when my bus took a stop at this highway cafe in Lonavala...

I was now getting into the mood of the trip, so much so that I made an entry in my phone to be added to this blog later...it goes..."it's beginning to feel like an epic journey, am finally going for it after having dreamt about it for so long, gonna watch Dj Tiësto in action, GOD's own music, dunno how to explain what it feels like..." it was getting weird, in my bus, crowded with mostly working men in their late 40s and a sprinkling of a few youngsters I managed to hear God's name atleast 4 times...I felt reassured in the knowledge that there were others with me, on to make the same journey, attain nirvana...

Finally morning arrived and there we were, on the outskirts of Hyderabad and the bus guy told us he wasn't going into the city, just pass it by the outskirts...so I had to get off and look for autos and bargain with the rickshaw drivers, trying to sound as if I knew the city better than them...Finally ended up taking a common sharing auto for half an hour and another auto after that for an hour and while my belief in God was such that I never for once doubted that this wouldn't be worth it, I wondered if all this made sense...anyways, I reached my cousin's place and wished my cousin as it was his birthday...I mean how lucky can the guy be, for his birthday party, he got God to play at his party...DAMMIT!!!!

So I reached and immediately went looking for the ticket which my cousin had bought for me a few days earlier...and I fell in love with it the moment I saw it...The gorgeous black envelope with the fiery SOUL CLUB logo on top and the ticket inside, proclaiming in big bold letters that yes, GOD was on his way, and various other things like 4 complimentary drinks and sponsors and so on and so forth...

Anyways, on went the day, crawling around, had lunch, cut my cousin's cake, finally decided to take a few hours nap to calm my nerves...and there I woke up at 4.45 pm, all awake to get ready and push off for the gates to God opened at 5 pm...Called up Soul Club and asked them about the schedule and then came the first dampener...she told me a coupla local Djs were gonna open d concert with warmup sets from 8pm to around 10pm and then God would come in...This kinda left me a lil deflated as the party itself was only supposed to go on till 1 am and that would leave God with only 3 hours to work his magic...

So there I left home at 5.30 pm and screaming at the auto guy to reach me to my destination, 25 kms away, through peak hour traffic in 1 hour...He also must've thought I was kinda mad but nevertheless, he didn't show it, just kept quiet and tried to get there as fast as possible...My cousin looked at me with a sense of incredulity when I told him I wanted to be there by 6.30, latest 7 as the party wasn't gonna start before 8 but how to explain to him, there was nothing more important than getting in the first row to get up close and personal with God...

As I completed the journey to the Gachi Bowli Stadium, there was a sense of excitement building up in me, there were goosebumps on my arms...Then I reached there, at 6.30pm and then came the next dampener, the security guard at the entrance of the stadium told me that the gates were not opening before 7.30 pm...This kinda stunned me as the ticket clearly said opening at 5 pm and then this guy tells me 7.30 pm which means the party wouldn't start till even later which would leave me even lesser time to meet God... :( :(

Here, my spirits started going down slowly and slowly as the disorganised state of the whole event started showing...There were other crazed fans like me, standing since early, wondering what to do, none ofcourse as devoted as me...

Then finally at 7.30 pm they opened the gates and in I walked into the stadium, the location for what would turn out to be my Heaven...

I continue into the next part of The Pilgrimage series...

catch ya there,

ciaos,
gRiNcH <3 Dj Tiësto

Mr. Ass and life with him...

2008-02-04T19:34:00.000+05:30

orite, so i'm back again and back to write something negative as usual...so this post is gonna be a lot less violent as it was originally intended to be coz i came to webworld to post but i've been sitting here for over 4 hrs doing facebooking and other stuff and LO BEHOLD! the internet has had it's calming effect on me...

Nevertheless, we shall not be cowed down by this lack of fury and will still go on and post about a certain thought process which simply never ceases to amaze me...they say 'You can argue the most foolproof statements with pure logic and reasoning but the one thing it fails in front of is plain stupidity and dumb-headedness'...So here is a post dedicated to the most 'plain dumb' creature i have known...No names...

What do you do when somebody makes a statement and then 2 mins later says 'I never said that' or 'So what if my statement is false??' when you successfully manage to prove his statement wrong...The person will rather die than admit that he could be wrong...He'll accept his statement is wrong but he'll come with something even more absurd immediately to keep the argument going...Such is his spontaneity that I have seen the most logical people fall prey to his absurdity...

But alas, that is not the only rare quality found in this extremely rare specimen of the species of homo sapiens...there is yet another quality which completely prevents him from being accomodating even in the least bit, this person would go out of his way to make sure that there is discomfort to the person in his company, god bless the companion's soul...and should the other person by any chance, be capable of having an opinion and saying it, this highly intelligent(in his opinion, nobody elses) person will say something like 'fine, u only r right always, i'm always wrong' in such a way that the companion would feel so small and petty that he'd melt and go right under the ground out of shame. Perhaps nobody's told this person (let's name him Mr. ASS) that to exist in this world, specially away from near and dear, you have to learn the meaning of that six-letter word called "ADJUST". but alas, this small word seems to escape from Mr. Ass' dictionary, which again according to him, is of the highest degree possible...

Simple, human actions, simple thoughts aimed at making another fellow human being's life easier just seem to evade him completely...There are the few people who would actually go to the extent of calling him a 'nice person' and use adjectives such as 'sweet' for Mr. Ass but I smile at their ignorance, for they have not had the privilege of having his company for longer than normal...I don't deny Mr. Ass does not have a nice side but alas, like his arguments and his words, the positives are completely overshadowed by the complete absence of common sense and utter depravity of the common human asset called intelligence...

I guess it is my own foolishness which caused me to fall into this trap, not knowing what I was getting into when I agreed to share company with Mr. Ass...this test of my character is almost over and anybody who has been a witness to this torture would say I have behaved in a most admirable manner, never letting my emotions get the better of me and always managing to find a way to smile when actually I wanna let loose and scream, shout and tell Mr. Ass the truth about himself and bringing him down to earth...I feel it is good that I have not done that, for every fool deserves to live in his ignorance, no matter how harmful it is to him...Let them find the light themselves, perhaps it'll be through the hard way...I don't know and I don't care...

Looking back at all that I have written, I am amazed i've managed to avoid the use of the word FUCK in any capacity or any other expletive...I guess that proves the statement "Time calms us all down"

Cheers, hardly any time left...

YAHOO>...

ciaos,
gRiNcH

retrospection...

2008-01-01T01:12:00.000+05:30

it's 2008, yay and i'm sitting at home and relaxing...didn't go out partying even though i wanted to but not in jaipur, wish i was back in mumbai...

i know it's not cool to start with something negative but can't help it, feel like talking about it...sitting here at home, letting the night pass, not wanting to go out, can't help but think that after spending 17 years in this city, my entire schooling and acquiring a fairly decent social circle, it's kinda weird that i didn't wanna go out partying in jaipur coz i didn't wanna bump into anybody i knew, didn't wanna socialise, didn't wanna say hi hello to people i don't really wanna be with...sometimes i go back to think about what one of my friends (the erstwhile suar) said about being the way people like you to be and be politically correct, do the things that others are fine with and most importantly, go to great pains to hide your screwed up side(screwed up in their eyes) and maintain yourself as the correct guy in everybody's eyes...atleast that way, you'd have people to hang out with...

but then i come back to thinking that it doesn't necessarily get me the best kinda friends, i might have lesser number of friends now but atleast i know they're all true...

maybe that's why i don't feel so bad about not being able to go anywhere tonight cause my close circle isn't in town...

cheers to the new year,
gRiNcH

Never mind...

2007-12-25T01:57:00.001+05:30

yo ppl, sry ain't been posting, just ain't been in the mood to...

lost interest with almost everything in life...life is as perfect as i can think it to be but it sucks and i'm bored and i'm blabbering...

ciaos,
gRiNcH

Ain't no sunshine when she's gone!!!

2007-10-30T00:43:00.000+05:30

hey, it's been long, haven't posted regarding anything...couldn't find anything which mattered enough or i even bothered about...but there is one thing that's hit me pretty hard, that matters now, it's something i didn't think could make so much of a difference to me(guess was just plain too cold by now) but it has, it's done it again, worked it's magic all over again...

it's her, the one person who's been like the backbone of my life ever since the start of the year...not backbone as in cause i've gone through hardships(thank goodness i haven't) but just been there, the one reassuring factor in my life while everything around changed, while i changed...the one who gave me the strength to make a difference to my life, her presence made me do things i'd always wanted to but just never ended up doing...thanks a tonne to her for godaloneknows how many things, can't even begin to count...

so, it's a month's break and she ain't there...and i remember the song "Ain't no sunshine when she's gone" by Lighthouse Family...the title seems so apt...while her role's changed over the months, it's still the same, there ain't no sunshine when she's gone...when she's around, there's something to laugh about(most of the times she herself coz i keep making fun of her or so she says), there's something to look forward to, more so in d past one month...every minute spent with her is like another minute under the sun which is y there ain't no sunshine when she's gone...everything seems so empty, so lifeless without her...i'm sitting at home and i should be enjoying it, relaxing but i can't help wish that she was here...need her presence all d time, it's like an aphrodisiac, makes my mood go sky-high...

really wonder how i'll pass the next few weeks, here on break, at home, away from her, away from college, with nothing to keep my mind off her, nothing to make me busy enough to stop thinking about her...

don't bother posting a comment on this, wasn't meant for any of u...just her and me...

ciaos,
gRiNcH

Exhiliration unstoppable!!!

2007-08-22T09:42:00.000+05:30

heya ppl, missed you guys for too long man...its been so long since i posted but couldn't help it, was involved and caught up in the most exhilirating experience of my life...MALHAR!!!

in fact, the post is dedicated to Malhar...i know its been done once before but that was when i'd just got into it, i didn't really have any idea how big it was, how much it had in store to show...the week starting 10th ending 15th night has to be the most kickass experience of my life...learnt so much, saw so much, worked so much...

i remember the 15th evening when arjun, cp(cheapy) Malhar, declared Malhar 07 closed, the sigh that went up in the 1200 strong workforce that was sitting in that first quad was so overwhelming that you could feel it, you could feel the bond that it had created between all of us, all working to a common aim, all working for 2 days together as one unit, with one aim in mind...to put on 'THE GREATEST SHOW ON EARTH'...dunno if we succeeded but we sure put in our best, each and every one of us...when the fest was declared closed and ppl got up and started to disperse, there was a general feeling of being lost, being zapped by wat was happening...when some ppl broke down and started crying, you could feel their pain, understand their emotion...its what happens if you put your entire life on hold for a period of time and give something supreme importance, let it rule ur life for a good period of time, put in everything you have inside your body and heart, give more dedication to it then u would ever to probably your studies or anything else and then, suddenly, its over, u have to return back to ur normal life...there's such a feeling of blankness coz its like ur returning back to the world after 2 months with no idea of whats happened in between...

the whole thing might sound alien and weirdass to you guys but i can bet you that if any of you have worked for your college fest ever and really put in your heart into it, you'll noe exactly what i mean...

CHEERS, to the whole CULFEST tradition!!!

ciaos,
gRiNcH

P.S. forgot to put it in the post, just remembered, being totally immersed in ur fest might cause you to have splits with some close ppl as you might snap at them or totally ignore them while ur preoccupied...nthn wrong with it, just remember to apologise and make up after that...here's to all the ppl i snapped at during the whole duration of the past 1 month...SORRY!!!

<3 Malhar and <3 Marketing!!!

2007-07-10T20:31:00.000+05:30

yo ppl, its 8.32 pm(i was beginning to miss my usual opening line) and i'm sitting, comfortably ensconsed in the air-conditioned MOFFICE...for all those of you who aren't aware of the term, it stands for MALHAR OFFICE...now for those of you who aren't familiar with that either...GO SCREW YOURSELF!!! lol, never mind, just me and my quirky sense of humour...

anyways, so i'm sitting in the office, placed here as a member of the Marketing Department of Malhar. Now in case you guys were wondering what in the world is happening, lets clue you in...my life has taken a great turn in the past 5 days...from being on the verge of pulling my hair out caused by extreme boredom and dissatisfaction, i am now back to my jovial mood, back to smiling always(though some say i look more tensed now) and most importantly, back to cracking jokes 24\7 albeit with a change, the sarcasm is mostly gone...

now now, for all of you who were almost addicted to my sarcasm, fear not, i didn't say its finished, i just merely said i managed to crack jokes nowadays without being sarcastic...it in no way cuts down on my sarcastic capabilities...ahhh, how i drift away from the topic....

back to the point...MALHAR and MARKETING...now i didn't do the former last year for lack of stability in life reasons(not emotional, accomodation related) and hence i felt like i'd really missed out on a big part of my college life at St. Xaviers. But now, this year, i'm doing it and i'm into Marketing, the one Department where i'd always fancied myself being good at...good or no good, the one thing thats definitely happening is i'm enjoying my work, feel like i'm doing something worthwhile finally for a change, like maybe i'm finally applying myself to something positively constructive and the best part...i'm managing to lose weight while doing all of it!!! yahoo...

no, but seriously, my first 5 days of marketing have hit me like a drug, i fear getting addicted to it by the time the fest ends...the constant calling up different ppl who're high up in their companies and approaching them with complete proposals and figures and then negotiating with them not over chewing gums and other trivial stuff but actual big-time money is like totally an unknown high...and its a fact, ITS A HIGH!! to get somebody to part with a sizeable chunk of their money or give away major electronic goods of his to you so that you can give them away prizes in your fest is freaking amazing, i love the job...i finally feel like i'm being mentally pushed, if not totally in terms of academics but in terms of management and inter-personal skills and persuasiveness...

I'M IN LOVE WITH MARKETING!!!

now the 2nd part of the blog, the reason behind marketing, the fest...MALHAR!!! the whole fest has this like amazing magnetic quality in it, it manages to pull out the best in all the people in the college and bring them all together and work towards pulling off one of the biggest events in their lives and perhaps one of the most well-known events in the Mumbai Youth Calendar. meeting new ppl from your own college everyday, working with them with almsot no regard for egos and other such irrelevant stuff...

newayz, i should be heading off now, have to go off to my mess and have dinner...

ciaos,
gRiNcH

CONFUSED??? never mind, its the only constant...

2007-06-23T18:24:00.000+05:30

here you go guys, i fulfill your dream tonight of having 2 posts by me in the same night...lol, just kidding, just been too long and there's some stuff thats really been on my mind...its kinda confusing cause it makes me change my own stand on things every little while...so get ready for yet another philosophical and figurative sounding post...

ever faced a time where you'd been pushing for something, doing everything in your power to make it happen and then when it happens, you don't just feel a sense of anti-climax and a kinda emptiness but also a negative feeling, a feeling of never wanting it to happen in the 1st place...well, it sounds crazy but strangely enough, its happening...i'm seeing it happen...something you really pushed for, you really wanted to see it take place and now that its happened, you aren't really happy about it, in fact you don't like it at all, the green-eyed monster taking over you, making you feel things totally incorrect...

i read my facebook HOROSCOPE the other day and it didnt make sense to me but today, it says exactly d same thing and its making perfect sense...rather better than perfect sense...now i'm not somebody who believes in such stuff but i do occassionally read the horoscopes here there just for the sake of passing time and the more i read them, the more i feel they're bullshit and too vaguely written for them to be accurately true but facebook's kinda changing all that...my horoscope reads like "Scorpio: You'll be tempted by someone who isn't available. Try to think with your head and not just your heart (or hormones) to avoid hurting an innocent party."...now that time when i read it a coupla days back, it made a little sense to me but i didnt really bother cause the thing it was pointing towards was really of no consequence...but today i just read it again and i can fully grasp the significance of it...it wasnt even meant to imply in the direction that i believed earlier...its something totally different and far more accurate on this hit...and i dont quite know how to react to it...

nonetheless, this post was more like to just vent out my thoughts and put them in an arranged manner...

now i'm kinda beginning to roast in this webworld despite it being 6.35 pm...so catch ya guys later in a few days or maybe a coupla weeks...

ciaos,
gRiNcH

<3 COLLEGE!!! not a repetition, call it part 2...

2007-06-23T18:06:00.000+05:30

damn, finally, i'm back to blogging...its been a while and not blogging began to make me feel kinda restless...so here i am, sitting in this webworld, the only place i trust to use the net and this one's let me down, THERE'S NO BLOODY AIRCONDITIONING ON!!! the sweat is as bad as the ganges flowing but never mind, havta write out all the things in my head today...

so i begin, this one's related to one of my passions and something thts now gonna become an even more integral part of my life if not enough already...i'm talking about my COLLEGE...St. Xaviers College...now i know i've already posted on it once but things have kinda changed...you'll ask how come, considering the last time i posted was in my vacations and college has just been on for the past coupla weeks so there really shouldn't be much change...but there is, i'm now into the COLLEGE HOSTEL!!!

damn, its awesome...the first time for me in a hostel and hostel life is proving up to its reputation...crazy fun, increased interaction with fellow collegemates and a feeling of really being part of the institution...all along the past year, i kept hearing accounts of hostel life of all my friends who'd been living in it and i never believed it could be so much fun, thinking there's nothing better than living in your own place, alone...but its happened, i've turned a complete 180 degrees and now i can only count its positives...

so if my passion for my college wasnt already enough, here's one of the two reasons i've fallen in love even more...the other has to be attributed to the events of last night...now a big part of hostel life has to be the one feared, yet enjoyed action, probably the most famous thing about any hostel...the RAGGING!!! now naturally, when i shifted in, i had my apprehensions about it, wondering what kinda creativity my seniors would indulge in this time...but lo and behold!! in for a shock, we just had a session last night...the seniors refuse to call it ragging, they call it an ICE-BREAKER...i remember this one outta them saying they've changed the name from ragging and with it, they've changed the meaning...we weren't really ready to accept that but by the time, it finished, we had to agree...just pure harmless fun, really breaking the ice...it got us to meet all the seniors and get acquainted with them and boy, was it fun...

the seniors, or more specifically the TYs have to be the coolest batch of people i've come along...alas, the batch senior to us wasnt really that cool and chilled out and our batch had to make up for it...here though, no such problems...a crazy bunch of guys who're chilled out, always ready to have fun, gr8 sense of humour, gr8 presence of mind...i'm sure this year's gonna end up being a lot more fun than i had originally presumed it would be...cheers to the HOSTEL!!!

woohoo

ciaos,
gRiNcH

Emptiness, Blankness, Lost and NUMB!!!

2007-06-06T02:56:00.000+05:30

i'm back to write probably the last post now for sometime as i'm going back in 2 days to Mumbai, back to college, back to my life...

not quite sure of what exactly what i wanna write today...everything is feeling so weird...its almost like everything around me is blanking out, my mind is blanking out...i'm heading off to college, going after 3 loong months from home where i didn't have to think about anything, do whatever, not bother about anything...maybe thats the reason i'm feeling so lost...

the feeling's a combination of emptiness, blanking out, being spaced out, lost, bewildered...i mean i know i have some work to do but i'm not being able to do it...i sit down to something and my mind drifts away...its been on for the past one week, just increased drastically in the past 2-3 days...

how blank, how empty within yourself can you feel when somebody goes away?? how much can it affect you?? quite a bit i guess, seems like thats the case...

a line from a song "I tried so hard and got so far...but in the end it doesn't even matter" its from In the End - Linkin Park...yeah, the same track that almost became like the anthem back in school...damn, that time in school, so many memories, so much linked to it...anyways, so this line is just kinda flashing past me now, telling me i tried hard, almost made it but now it doesn't even matter...all for something i have no control over and is mostly false, a complete lie...

I should be feeling so angry but i'm not, there's not even the faintest trace of anger or fury...all that is there is emptiness, blank expression, certain kinda numbing...its like suddenly i've caved in to everything thats happening around me and have retreated into my shell, giving myself time to regain myself and come back...there's so much around me that is happening, that i have to do(and that includes packing), so much stuff but i'm just feeling empty, numb...even the stuff i love to do, things which i can't live without are almost like not happening only...i mean i've been sitting in this chair for the past 3 hours i guess and i just switched on the music like half an hour back...was sitting for 2hr30mins without music and i didn't even notice it...actually, there's not much i think i noticed anyways...

well, whatever it is, i'm hoping it gets fine once i'm back in mumbai, back to my college life, back to a routine to life, back to movement and away from stagnancy...its all so messed up...

ciaos,
gRiNcH

Music is LIFE!!! Part 2

2007-06-03T13:13:00.000+05:30

yay, i'm back to talk about the rest of the music i've been hearing lately...

yeah, so picking up from where i left last...i just saw Driven, the movie...it wasnt half bad and was even good fun most of the times...but the soundtrack was way better than half-bad...some of the tracks you absolutely have to hear are...

BT - Satellite (Its a very different track, BT's done an insane job on it...must must must hear)
Rob Dougan - I'm not driving anymore (worth listening to)
Era - Mother (similiar to the ENIGMA type of music, definitely worth listening)
Tantric - Breakdown (Some good soft rock i guess you would call it)
Doyle Bramhall\Smokestack - Green Light Girl (just the kinda track you get in a racing movie)
Poison Well - Insolence (nice rock track, maybe belongs to the NFS soundtrack more)

so the next artiste in line for my critical review(lol) is Breaking Benjamins...another addition to the ALTERNATIVE ROCK kinda music...remember Linkin Park, Fort Minor...the same kinda music...

The Diary of Jane - you have to listen to it, and specially the ACOUSTIC version
Blow me Away - its an insane rock number...and for the gamers, its on HALO 2

the entire album SATURATE is worth listening to...

newayz, thats it for now...plz keep posting comments bout new music...

ciaos,
gRiNcH

Beaten by time, qualifications & some guy in another city!!! :(

2007-06-02T14:43:00.000+05:30

so i was gonna post the second part in the Music is life but like i'm sure all of you have got used to by now, i never manage to keep my word and i never manage to do whatever's planned...so i wasnt able to post the remainder of the music either but i will, in a coupla days, before i leave, i definitely will...

so in case the title's puzzling you all, lets clear the mystery...in my race to set things right, to set my life in order, i lost out, i lost out to 3 things...namely

1) TIME
2) Qualifications
3) Some guy in another city!!!

the only one which is important outta these is Time...another quote often heard is "There's never a wrong time to do the right thing"...silly fellows haan, whoever came up with that quote must've had an extraordinary stroke of luck running with him that whenever he did whatever was right, it always paid off...bloody i often wonder, in today's day and age, how is it that we're managing to overturn most of the sayings made by our forefathers, we're managing to go totally against all of it...we must be one fucked up generation man, lol...orite, no offence, plz dont send any activists to my place looking to create riots...hahahaha...

so getting back to the point, how do you manage to win against Time, the one thing that doesn't stop for anybody in the world...when it comes to time-related division, a person can be off two types...the first is he could be IMPULSIVE, he could do things as they happen, take things as they come, straight whatever his heart tells him, whatever his mind says on instinct and impulse...the advantage of being this way is that you never get to lose out on any opportunity and you never waste any time on thinking bout anything, you just go ahead, do everything...but i guess the problem with that is the fact that you're relying too heavily on your instincts and your natural gut feel...you could end up taking a lotta wrong decisions, doing a lotta wrong stuff because you never gave it a thought...FREAKING SAD LIFE IT IS!!! lol...

and the other way to be is Calculative and Thoughtful bout everything...in this, you spend an insane amount of time thinking about every decision of your life...sure you have space for your feelings, its not like you ignore them but all you do is you sit and ponder over things and you enumerate and evaluate the pros and cons of everything and every step...even your own feelings, the things you feel, you take them also as just another factor and weigh it alongside all the other factors, like taking out WEIGHTED AVERAGE MEAN...hahahahaha, too much maths man...all permutations and combinations to finally decide what you gonna do with your life...hilarious...the cons of this way are that its often said that 'the more you think about something, the more you feel wrong about it, the more you get convinced to not do it' and its pretty true, the more you think, the more the cons rule you...so thats the con of being thoughtful...the pros are ofcourse the fact that you put in a great deal of thought, so there's no scope for any decisions going wrong cause they were taken in haste, the max that can happen is you'll miss out on a few things in life...

now this brings me to another question...its something which is a part of everything in life today...there are two ways to live life...

Safe and contented, no risks, fair amount of happiness, no unhappiness...

OR

Risky, taking chances, greater happiness but chances of sadness also...

with the second way is the IMPULSIVE approach method cause the CALCULATIVE method will never really let you give off yourself completely and get into something totally...

the problem with the CALCULATIVE method is that you often tend to Lose In The Race To TIME!!!

food for thought, what is the way to go...

ciaos,
gRiNcH

Music is life(Part 1) !!!

2007-06-01T12:36:00.000+05:30

yay, finally a happy post...not one comin from stupid anger, silly depression or dumb irritation...yeah, so we're gonna talk my language today and its called Music Language...so lets start...

i've decided to start this chain of posts, its titled MUSIC IS LIFE and everytime i'm gonna post whatever new music i've found(the music may not be new, just i've found it)...i have posted some music on recent posts as well but this is like now a dedicated series of posts...

first off, checked out more tracks by 3 Doors Down and my shortlisting of the ones i really fell for...

Loser - its got some real cool music and lyrics
Be Like that - food for thought??
Kryptonite - If i go crazy, then will you still call me superman?? lol...
Let me go - damn cool again
and how can i forget

HERE WITHOUT YOU - amazing track...

so moving on, next on my recent findings is the soundtrack of the hindi movie Shootout at Lokhandwala...the music on the movie is pretty catchy, every song plays its part in the movie...the real stars are

Aakhri Alwida - the track is by STRINGS, got a nice feel to it...
Live By The Gun - now this track you have to listen to, its totally unexpected but its damn cool...
Ganpat - omg, lol, this track is hilarious...and if you watch the video, its even better...

hmmm, so then i also recently got the soundtrack of Gone in Sixty Seconds...now if you haven't seen the movie as yet, DO IT RIGHT NOW!!! hehe, its an amazing movie...and there was this one track from the movie which really blew my mind...in fact i think it also blew my speakers, the bass is just insane...its called

Bring Sally Up - check it out for sure...

oh yeah, my comp just changed tracks and i realised another artiste i'd jus chanced upon lately...he's Dj Shadow...if you guys don't know the name, you'll remember him from the track Six Days(remix) from the movie Tokyo Drift...so anyways, he's got a good style, some really calming but progressive beats, its nice...some of his tracks which i hit upon are...

Six Days(Remix) - TOKYO DRIFT SOUNDTRACK, temme you've heard it...
Building Steam with a grain of salt - omfg, this track is amazing, the whole calm progression is just a work of genius, possibly his best work...
Organ Donor - again some nice music, got a good sound to it
High Noon - some real cool music, forgot where i've heard it...
rest are Blood on the motorway, Entropy, What does your soul look like...

newayz, got some more music recently which is damn cool, havta rush now, post again prolly tonite

ciaos,
gRiNcH

f*ing b*****(statutory adult warning, only above 18)

2007-05-29T04:13:00.000+05:30

orite, so my second post in the same night and at 4.15 am, you guessed it right...i'm mindfucked totally...

damn, i so totally hate all those fucking people who have nothing better to do than spread gossip and whatever shit...and you know whats worse...whats worse are those fucked up pieces of shit who run outta gossip they've heard to spread, so they create gossip...i mean fuck you bitches, don't you have anything better to do?? do you have any idea how much damage you could be causing by spreading your silly little shit jus for the sake of fucking timepass...

really man, so fucking furious right now, its not funny...the worst is these fucked up gossip-mongers will take whatever fucked up crap they hear and go ahead and spread it all over without even bothering to check whether its real or not...man, i so feel like fucking creating fucked up gossip bout them and spreading it...damn man, i'm supposed to be heartless, these guys are 2 steps ahead, they beat me to it man...

fuck all you people out there whose existence is based on the growth of gossip...and if you fuckers really wanna gossip, atleast spread whatever's true man, dont fucking create shit just for the sake of it, you have no fucking idea how much shit you might be causing...and most important of all, remember...

WHAT GOES AROUND, COMES AROUND!!!

fuck you guys, one day your life'll come crashing down cause somebody'll spread some shit about you...you guys can start praying that its not me coz if it is, your life's gonna turn into hell gone 10 times worse...

fuck you,
gRiNcH

I wonder...dont answer, it's meant for me...

2007-05-29T00:55:00.000+05:30

orite, now i know i'm really messed up in my head...i've already deleted what i've written twice and now i'm totally going off the topic i'd decided to right now...i don't quite know what's happening with me, don't quite know what's happening in my mind, just know a lot's happening and i don't quite think i'm equipped to handle it...

i'm not writing looking for somebody to sympathize or empathize or console me, i don't need it...just writing it coz need to vent it out and this seems to be the best place to do it, even if its not so discreet...so this thing's been on for quite sometime, the turbulence has been present for enough time for it to be not just a flash-in-the-pan...but in the recent past, the turbulence has increased by quite a few times and now its like a constant bee nagging at the back of my mind...i didnt really give it enough importance then cause i knew there's nothing i could do about it...not that i can do anything now either but its just so messed up that i don't know what to do...

what is having a soft corner ?? i don't quite know and i don't think i ever will...does having a soft corner for somebody mean more than that or does it just imply a certain amount of affection you feel for somebody?? does it mean that you really like that person and you go slightly off the hook when that person comes in front of you or is mentioned in front of you or does it mean that you just feel a great sense of protectiveness and great deal of kiddo affection for that person?? if its the former, then boy, i need to get my dictionary updated and if its the latter, then WHAT THE HELL IS THE FORMER CALLED??

so thats one question...now the next thing i wonder is how can somebody be calculative when it comes to feelings and relationships?? as in i don't mean manipulative, i just mean calculative as in how can somebody use logic and similiar things when thinking about a relationship?? again i don't quite know what i'm talking about...its just that i guess its possible to think of parameters such as compatibility, distance, quantity of interaction and bullshit like that when evaluating a relationship or the viability of a prospective relationship...the question is: IS IT RIGHT TO DO SO??

sorry, just lost the interest to write anymore...

ciaos,
gRiNcH

P.S. sorry, i forgot, the time is 2.01 am...

Miscellaneous!!!

2007-05-26T00:26:00.000+05:30

yo people, its 12.27 am and here i am, online and posting even though i have no idea what i'm gonna post...just wanna write so i will...bear with me...

anyways, i just came back home, had gone to watch shootout at lokhandwala...no big deal really, just puts up a few disturbing questions and shows stark reality, i liked it...yeah, so i watched the movie...what else's new?? lets see...oh yeah, just got addicted to some new music...i'm sure you've all heard of Nirvana and the god that is Kurt Cobain...so yeah, i've got addicted to namely 3 tracks

Rape me
Smells Like Teen Spirit
Come as you are

i think i needed a change of music, been hooked onto Here without you - 3 doors down for way too long now...there's been a change in my life, its time to change the music as well...

and when i think of music, how can i forget my latest love, the Sennheiser HD485, my latest acquisition...so i had a lan party the night before and i finally tested them on gaming parameters and the verdict is out...THEY'RE DEADLY!!! the whole cocoon of the sound helps you pinpoint the enemy so well, almost like having a third eye...sexy stuff!!!

oh yeah, how can i say sexy and not mention my latest love(of the female variety)...i just watched Dead or Alive and while i really loved the action sequences and the movie, the star of the show for me was Holly Valance...i checked out her other videos and stuff and she nowhere looks even closely as delectable and as breathtaking as she does in the movie...for those of you who've seen the movie, i know you agree with me...

wow, my post seems to be running like a chain, the last word of every para seems to itself point to the next topic...so the next keyword is AGREE...yeah, now agreement is a real fuck-up, aint it...somebody could agree to something, you could believe that person and the next thing you know, the person dishonours their word and you're left stranded in the middle of nowhere...now when that happens, you wonder at your own mental competence and your naivete...never mind guys, happens to all of us, even the best of us(i'm referring to me ofcourse :P lol)!!! hehehe...

hehehe, the last word of the last para, i guess that leads me to my rediscovered laughter...i guess it had kinda found a way to escape from me for the past few days...so many things on my mind, everyday(nite) a new fuck-up, laughter thought it could escape me...lol, no way baby, there's no way i'm gonna let laughter escape me, even if it was the great HOUDINI itself!!!

orite, HOUDINI doesn't strike any bell to me so i guess this signals the end of this post...
catch ya guys later with something specific

ciaos,
gRiNcH

Why're you so happy??

2007-05-24T13:57:00.000+05:30

hey, so its 2 pm and i'm back, rejuvenated by last night's lan party...woohoo, gaming makes me feel so energetic again...so, yeah, i'm back to blog, seem to be on a blogging spree...i guess that can be attributed partly to the fact that i'm totally free and mostly to the fact that there's a lotta stuff going on in my mind...so, sorry to disappoint you guys, but this one's gonna be a philosophical post as well...

i heard this saying long back...dont quite remember it exactly but i'll tell you what i do...it went something like "When you are on your deathbed, your entire life flashes past you in front of your eyes and all of life's questions get answered"...so if i'm looking for an answer, one way is to wait for that...but who's got that much patience, right?? so anyways, thankfully a few questions do seem to get answered long before that, just have to wait for the right time...

one such question that had been in my mind since exactly a year back got answered this year...ever heard your parents say "The day you become a parent, you'll realise what it means\what you go through\how much it means??" i'm sure none of you could've escaped this line...well, guess what, it doesn't just apply to a parent-child relationship, it applies to every relationship...so fine, you can laugh at me if you already knew that, i'm kinda dense, don't realise these things...just did now, yesterday...

so exactly a year back, i remember this incident took place which concerned me and was a major turning point in my life...its outcome would decide most of the rest of my life...so anyways, the incident took place and i managed to come out of it pretty well, not exactly the way i wanted but not in the dumps either...and there was this person then who was almost outta my life by then but was still there...so when i saw the outcome, i was pretty pleased with myself...but then this other person also seemed to be just as happy as me, maybe even more actually...when this happiness was expressed to me, I, being the dumb person i am, actually was foolish enough to ask "Why're you so happy??"...when i asked this question, i had no clue how foolish i was sounding...the other person, as shocked as anyone would've been...kinda disappointed, emotions crushed like a nut being hit by a jackhammer(ok fine, maybe thats a bit extreme but i'm assuming) and i had no idea what i'd done...i just wondered "WHAT DID I SAY?? WHAT DID I SAY??" so anyways, that question remained unanswered and life carried on...

then this year, coupla days back, the same incident occured with that person...and this time ofcourse, that person's outcome was on a totally different level...like went through the roof types...so i check up on that person and i get great pleasure in that person's result but to my surprise...i go totally ballistic...i myself go through the roof, feel like celebrating, jumping up and down, do anything crazy...after sometime when this craziness comes down to sane levels, it hits me that there's no reason for me to feel so exuberant either...and then my question gets answered and enlightenment age is reached...

so i guess it's all about experiencing things and actually stepping into the other's shoes and going through the same...FINE FINE, LAUGH ALL YOU WANT, I JUST HAPPEN TO BE SLOW AT ALL THIS!!! :P

ciaos,
gRiNcH

random stuff...Part 1...

2007-05-22T02:11:00.001+05:30

hmmm, so its 2.11 am and i'm back to blog for lack of anything better to do...

i thought i'll make this kinda interesting and interactive...i'm gonna start a post...lets make a list of the cool sayings or quotes or something...i'm gonna start with a few i've heard...

Time is a waste of life and life is a waste of time, so let's just get wasted and have the time of our lives - Abhishek's gtalk status

Life is a lesson, you learn it when you're through - 'Take a look around' by Limp Bizkit

Too many people spend too much time of their lives earning money they don't need to buy things they dont want to impress people they dont like - Don't remember, Dickens maybe(so true man, so true)

i'll keep posting as i keep remembering...

ciaos,
gRiNcH

Here Without You!!!

2007-05-22T00:57:00.000+05:30

well, here i am again, its 12.58 am and this post's gonna be a short one, just come to post on another something on MUSIC...

so there's this song i've been hearing for quite sometime...i remember my bro wanting to download it and i kept telling him no...i'm glad he sneaked past me and did download it...so this song is one which when i hear, i feel like being with somebody, feel like being crazily in love with somebody, belong to somebody...wish this song came out a few years back, wish i'd had it with me all these years...

Here Without You - 3 Doors Down

"Here Without You"

A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same
But all the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me

The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl its only you and me

Everything I know, and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it wont take away my love
And when the last one falls
When it's all said and done
It gets hard but it wont take away my love

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl its only you and me

beautiful song man, wish i had somebody to associate it with... :(((

ciaos,

gRiNcH

The NEW Sound of Music!!!

2007-05-21T02:07:00.000+05:30

so it's 2.10 am and i'm sitting back in my home, getting used to all the ways of home again...i'm now starting to finish the list i compiled and first on the list, in terms of priority, is something which takes me back to my greatest passion...MUSIC...

so i was on the trip a few days back and one of the most important things on my shopping list were a brand new pair of earphones...my original iPod ones had been worn out due to excessive use since last august(and believe me, really excessive use, ask my friends) and though they were working fine to all extents and purposes, i could feel that the volume had slightly gone down on them and they were starting to crack once i really turned up the volume(which happens all the time)...so anyways, i'd decided to buy a pair of new earphones and i'd settled on this choice of a pair of philips ones i'd spotted...they were really small, great design and damn reasonable...

but then something happened...

i was out with dad to sim lim square(thts like d electronic hub of singapore) and i was going through shops for my external hdd and some other stuff when i came across this shop stocking SENNHEISER headphones...it was like love at first sight...i'd heard a lot about the brand and they're reputed to be excellent for audio equipment so i knew that wasn't an issue...it was crazy, i went all over the mall looking for more shops selling SENNHEISER and trust me, its not a cool thing, freaking 6 floors of numerous shops having people who speak an english u dont speak...NOT FUNNY...so anyways, i found myself back to the same shop after 3 hours of going through all shops asking just one thing...exact words being "SENNHEISER, HD SERIES HEADPHONES, YOU HAVE??"

so anyways, the moment i stepped back into that shop...HUNG BROTHERS, 3rd FLOOR, i remember distinctly, the salesgirl looked at me and gave a smile...i kinda felt foolish...i'd already spent about 30 mins in her shop previously gazing at all the products and then told her i'll go look around...she knew it then only that i'll be back, it was all over my face...so i entered the store again and started gazing at them again and she couldn't stop smiling to herself...so here i was, standing in a shop, gazing at these headphones which i'd fallen in love with...only 2 thoughts going through my mind...

a) HOW DO I FREAKING DECIDE BETWEEN ALL THESE??
b) HOW DO I CONVINCE MY PARENTS TO LEMME BUY THESE??

so i'm looking at all the models, checking out the specifications on all of them, not really understanding anything, just seeing which specs look better...so i keep doing that for like 30 mins, i go back and forth...talk to the salesgirl who's by now thoroughly enjoying my discomfort...i ask her silly questions like "Which do most people buy??", "Which ones are best for listening to music and playing on the pc??", "which one do the gamers buy??"...so i finally narrowed down on the hd 485 and the dj pro 212 by the ancient method of doing inky-pinky-ponky...so i'm holding both of them in my hand, wondering how to decide when i decided to ask her one last time what she thinks...i ask "which is good for listening to music on the iPod and which has good bass??" and she goes like "do you have your iPod on you??"...i'm wondering wat a dumb question to ask...i said yes ofcourse...and then came the magic words...

"Orite cool, why don't you try out both of them??"

the words hit me like lightning and it suddenly struck me...Dude, YOU CAN FREAKING TRY THEM ON RE!!! ahahahahaha....i was so spellbound by them, it never occurred to me only...so i tried on the 2 headphones and immediately was able to decide that the one my heart was set on was the SENNHEISER HD 485...they looked sexy, sounded even better...i had little time to test them so here's the list of tracks i played to check them out

IN THE DARK - TIESTO FEAT. CHRISTIAN BURNS(the 1st 1 min really tests clarity and bass together)
REMEMBER THE NAME - FORT MINOR(the thump of the bass tests everything)
SMACK MY BITCH UP - PRODIGY(c'mon, dont have to tell you why for this one, do i??)
THE DIARY OF JANE(ACOUSTIC) - BREAKING BENJAMINS(had to check for clarity on slow, low bass songs)
SAY IT RIGHT - NELLY FURTADO(perfect blend of thumping bass and a melodious voice, complete opposites)

so the moment i heard these songs, i knew what to do...I HAD TO BUY THESE...so, it was set, i'd officially decided on the headphones...and the choice, ladies and gentlemen, is this...

the official link to the headphones on the site is

http://www.sennheiser.com/sennheiser/icm_eng.nsf/root/products_headphones_hi-fi-wired_500266

yeah, i noe what you're thinking...isn't there like a difference between the earlier ones and these?? like werent those earphones and these stereo headphones??

i know, i couldn't help, i'd fallen in love...so i bought this pair and THE SOUND OF MUSIC has had a new meaning since then...its like THE NEW SOUND OF MUSIC!!! the bass is so crazy that you actually feel it inside your brain thumping the shit outta you...the whole effect is like you're sitting cocooned with one of those huge hi-fis around you, enveloped in music...just you and your music...i know people usually don't think so much about headphones or music, i get it...i did receive ridiculous looks for roaming around the airport wearing these but then WHO CARES?? i was in a different world altogether...awesome man...really in love...

ciaos,
gRiNcH

BLAST FROM THE PAST!!!(Good and BAD)

2007-05-20T13:10:00.000+05:30

heya, its 1.11 pm and in case you guys were wondering why there's no more posts, GIMME A BREAK, I WAS ON VACATION!!! lol, like sitting at home for 3 months isn't vacation enough already...but anyways, i was on vacation from my vacation...was out on a trip with my family to the far east...10 days of sanitation, foreign languages, crazy breakfast(i love the concept of having sausages and bun for breakfast) and loadsa other stuff...oh yeah, the most predominant thing...THE CRAZY FREAKING NUMBER OF SOUTH INDIANS(jeez, i thought i was going abroad, felt more like i'd gone down south in my own country)...

yeah, so south indians notwithstanding, my trip was pretty amazing, had a good time and stuff...and now i'm back home, in the same seat sitting with my feet outstretched on yet another chair...damn it feels good to be home!!! so along these 10 days, i kept a notepad with me and kept jotting down the various topics i had to blog about but like i keep realising, LIFE IS WEIRD...so you shouldn't really be too surprised that this post has nothing to do with my trip or anything even remotely associated to that but rather something that just happened in the past 2 hours that i've been on the computer...

so the 2 things to remember today are LIFE IS WEIRD and LIFE IS SUCKY!!!...hehe, don't get freaked so fast, i'm not really off the hook as yet...so let's start with the LIFE IS SUCKY!! so this part of the post refers to the suckiness of your past...i mean c'mon guys, life is a long passage of time...you make mistakes, you screw up shit but when you change stuff and reinvent yourself and lead life properly, things should be right right?? NO, for heavens sake, you're so dumb if you think that way...your past keeps coming to haunt you, keeps coming back to tell you that even if you do mend your ways, its not enough, your future and your present will always be tainted by your past...

i mean jeez man, now, when things are moving along fine, trying to keep everything in a straight line, bang comes my past and throws me off the road...i mean just when i get serious again, the other person has to take the past as a reference point and hence decide to sidestep the present...woohoo, its awesome...but it's ok, i guess someday the burden of the past will be over and life will actually go on the way the present is...

anyways, on a contradictory note, i have a pleasant blast from the past...not bad, sometimes outta all the muck of the past comes along a ray of shine(ok, sorry bout d coincidence, just came out that way)...anyways, so it feels good sometimes when you're trying to leave behind the past cause it's all so messed up and there comes somebody from your past who wants to atleast set right that part of it atleast...its a good feeling to feel, not bad, you've actually managed some good... :D ...

lol, so anyways, this was a random post and next time i'll go back to my list and try and finish it off...and by the time i've come to the end of this post, i've decided to change the title so BLAST FROM THE PAST it is...

ciaos,
gRiNcH

These streets remind me of quicksand!!!

2007-05-09T23:14:00.000+05:30

so its 11.14 pm and i've just got back home sometime back...so sitting down now, settling into a position for tonight's online session(marathon if you will) and i just saw a note on my desktop...one of those yellow stick-it notes you just put so that you're reminded whenever you look at the desktop...and it said talk about 'ghetto'...now i read it tonight and i was wondering what i could possibly mean...never been to a ghetto so there's no way i could possibly be meaning that...that's when it struck me, i had to post about 'ghetto', the track by rapstar Akon...

orite then, now take d picture of a typical US rapper...usually black(eminem's the only exception), some hot wheels and i mean serious hot wheels...few hot babes and i mean seriously hot babes...loadsa bling and you guessed it, some serious bling...and more often than not, a tale of rags-to-riches...how they had a bad childhood, violent times, got through it all, been through a lot...booze, fag, serious dope, ass, guns, hustling, all this is a part of the life of the average gangsta rapper(thats what they like to be called right??) so anyways, they all go through this and when they decided to become rappers, most of them come up with their first album talking about their troubled childhood and stuff like that...AKON, the latest sensation to hit India, has a song like this as well...its from his album LONELY(i think its that album) and its called GHETTO...somehow as compared to all the ones by all the other guys, i got hooked onto this one...there's a stark reality in the lyrics, yet they're not so stark that they don't hit the human heart...you hear the lyrics, you can envisage the place, you can see the pain...you know exactly what he's talking about...and on top of that, the way he sings it...its not in some gangsta rapper way that he sings it, the voice comes like that of an ordinary guy who's going through it...the whole concept of the song is amazing, it hits you...the stark opposites...like THE CRAZY THUMPING BASS coupled with the MELLIFLUOUS LYRICS...a crazy kinda rap...crazy bass with beautiful lyrics...

orite, anyways, talked about the track enough...if you guys've heard it already then you know what i'm talking about...in case you haven't, go hear it...here are the lyrics...

"GHETTO"

Ghetto, Ghetto, Ghetto, Ghetto livin

[Verse one]

These streets remind me of quicksand (quicksand)
When your on it you'll keep goin down (goin down)
And there's noone to hold on too
And there's noone to pull you out
You keep on fallin (falling)
And noone can here you callin
So you end up self destructing
On the corner with the tuli on the waist line just got outta the bing doin state time
Teeth marks on my back from the canine
Dark Memories of when there was no sunshine
Cause they said that I wouldn't make it (I remember like yesterday)
Holdin on to what god gave me

[Chorus]

Cause thats the life when ur Living in the (ghetto)
and Eating in the (ghetto)
orSleeping in the (ghetto) (ghetto)
Cause thats the life when ur Living in the (ghetto)
and Eating in the (ghetto)
or Sleeping in the (ghetto, ghetto, ghetto)

[Verse two]

No need to cherish luxuries (cause everythin' come and go)
Even the life that you have is borrowed
(Cause your not promised tomorrow)
So live your life as if everydays' gon be your last
Once you move forward can't go back
Best prepare to remove your past
Cause ya gotta be willin to pray
Yea There gotta be (there gotta be) a better way
ohYea ya gotta be willing to pray
Cause there gotta be (there gotta be) a better day (way)

Whoever said that this struggle would stop today
A lot of niggas dead or locked away
Teenage Women growing up with aids

[Chorus]

Cause thats the life when your Living in the (ghetto)
ohEating in the (ghetto)
or Sleeping in the (ghetto, ghetto)
Thats the life when ur Living in the (ghetto)
ohEating in the (ghetto) or
Sleeping in the (ghetto, ghetto, ghetto)

[Bridge]

Gun shots every night in the (ghetto)
Crooked cops on sight in the (ghetto)
Every day is a fight in the (ghetto)(oh oh oh oh oh) (ghetto)
Got kids to feed in the (ghetto)
Selling coke and weed in the (ghetto)
Every day somebody bleed in the (ghetto)(oh oh oh oh oh) (ghetto)

[Chorus]

Thats the life when your Living in the (ghetto)
ohLiving by the (ghetto)
oh Eating in the (ghetto, ghetto)
Thats the life when your Living in the (ghetto)
ohSleeping in the (ghetto)
Living in the (ghetto, ghetto, ghetto)

(wooohhoohh)

so that's the song...i love the lyrics man, specially the para which starts with 'WHOEVER SAID THE STRUGGLE WOULD STOP TODAY....' crazy insane lyrics, crazy insane song

check it out, you won't regret it...

catch ya l8r,

ciaos,

gRiNcH

LOSING MY VIRGINITY!!! It's crazy, it's awesome!!!

2007-05-07T02:26:00.000+05:30

so its 2.50 am and i feel like writing again...so yes, today i've decided to write about LOSING MY VIRGINITY...what can i say that hasn't been said before...its amazing, an exhilirating experience, an insane journey, one like no other, one that shall never repeat itself...now i don't know how many of you've already gone through it but i'm sure that those of you who have will agree with me that there is simply, nothing quite like it!!!

so right, now just in case all of you guys have been employing your minds the way the youth of today do while reading the first paragraph, allow me to clarify...FOR ALL YOU DIRTY-MINDED PEOPLE, i was only talking about Sir RICHARD BRANSON'S AUTOBIOGRAPHY titled 'LOSING MY VIRGINITY'...yes, that is all that i was meaning, i actually wanted to talk about the book...

ok, in case you guys haven't heard of Sir RICHARD BRANSON, he's a highly successful businessman in the world and owns loads of companies...his group is called VIRGIN...now in case you guys were wondering where have you heard that one before, i'll tell you...try remembering VIRGIN ATLANTIC, the airline...or maybe VIRGIN MUSIC and V2, the music labels...or maybe VIRGIN BOOKS, the publishing house and many more...planes, trains, finance, soft drinks, music, mobile phones, holidays, wines, publishing, space tourism, cosmetics, this group has been there, seen it all, done it all...and that is exactly what makes the man called Sir RICHARD BRANSON...

Sir RICHARD BRANSON is not just one of the most successful businessmen in the world...saying that would be like showing only one facet of his life...he's much more than that...he's an avid adventurer, a social worker, an outgoing man, a man who likes to enjoy what he does and believes in living life to the fullest...his favourite mantra: SCREW IT, LET'S DO IT...and in case you're still wondering what's so exceptional about him...its not easy to follow his mantra and still manage to create a group that has created 200 COMPANIES, employing 35,000 people, and in 2002, managed to gain revenues worth over USD 2.7 billion...when those are the figures you're talking about, most people in this world would prefer to sit calmly and play safe, by the book...not this man...

so when he came out with his autobiography in 1999, it had to be something amazing...i, unfortunately, only learnt of it in 2007(this year) thanks to a friends sister who had bought the book and kept it in her bookshelf for me to see(cant thank you enough for it)...i picked it up, deciding to read it, not knowing when i'd find the time(not outta hectic work guys, outta my love for the television and my mobile and college)...but anyways, i started reading it and that was it, the moment i started, it was like an addiction...i couldn't let go of it...in the trains(can you imagine reading in a crowded Mumbai local??), in the lecture rooms(for once, i was doing something productive in them :P), in the foyer(c'mon, i couldn't leave it), at home(missed so many good movies)...

the book unfortunately only chronicles the life of Sir RICHARD BRANSON uptil 1999...i so wish he writes a sequel to it...anyways, the book describes the amazing journey of the man from humble beginnings to a dyslexic schooling, to a rebellious high school, to a small room publishing a youth newspaper, to open a music store(just by chance, because of a strike) to the studios and on and on to the success he's become...the journey was not easy, full of hurdles, full of enemies(the spat between BRITISH AIRWAYS and VIRGIN ATLANTIC is properly explained), full of challenges...and just when you think that he couldn't possibly have done more, there come his accounts of his ballooning exploits, his sailing, his adventure sports...c'mon guys, how can somebody pack so much into one life?? one can, the way he did...

the book is written in an informal style, like you can feel him talking to the readers...not for one moment do you feel the book has been stretched, it seems to move along at a fair pace all the time and still is the huge size it is...but then you can't blame him for that, there's a lot to tell...the book is a must read for anybody who likes to read non-fiction, real stories of successful businesses and businessmen...

and for all those who are waiting for a sequel to this book, WELCOME TO THE CLUB...Sir RICHARD BRANSON is the one man i look upto, the one success story i'd love to emulate...for there are others who've done what he's done and maybe gone further, but there is NONE who's done it THE WAY he's done...CHEERS TO YOU SIR!!!

go ahead, buy, beg, borrow, steal, photocopy(ok, that wouldn't be wise), do whatever it takes but grab hold of a copy and read it...believe me, you won't be able to keep it down...i remember a hilarious event during reading this book...i had kept the book next to my bag in the foyer during college and when i went up for my lecture, realised i hadn't picked it up...i frantically rushed down, looked all over the foyer for it, backtracked all my steps, searched for it like crazy...i didn't find it...my friend who's sister's book it was was screaming at me and i was feeling so upset, so sad...not because i'd lost her book, i could always buy another...but because IT WOULD BREAK THE FLOW OF MY READING IT!!!(sorry siddhi, its a fact!!!)

lol, anyways, enough said, go ahead, go through the experience called LOSING MY VIRGINITY!!!(damn, i really can't stop thinking perv, can i?? :P)

ciaos,
gRiNcH

P.S. Oh yeah!! in case you were wondering what happened to the book i lost, arrgghhh, my friend had picked it up and allowed me to feel the torture of not having it for almost 3 hours...she returned it at the end of that time...phew!! thank goodness...

WASTED??? NOT YET, I WONT ALLOW IT!!!

2007-05-05T04:44:00.000+05:30

hmmm, its 4.45 am now(yeah, dont get surprised, i just posted half an hour back) and i'm writing my 2nd consecutive post in the night...2 posts in the same night?? something must be wrong with me...it must be the lack of activity getting to me...actually, YES, IT IS EXACTLY THAT...meaning its exactly that that i have come to post about...

i was just going through the blog of a friend of mine(Abhishek, DS, Messi...dude, whr'd u come up with those names :P) and it had been quite some time since i'd gone on it...so i came upon this post titled "WASTED" and my first thought was he got drunk as well and wants to share his experience(lol man, sorry for the presumption)...but i went through the post and with every passing line that i read, my eyes opened wider and wider and i got even more engrossed in the post...agreed the writing style was amazing, the expression was classy but what really had me was the content of the post(i'm telling you man, your best work yet), the sheer brilliance of the concept, the excellence in its execution, the daring to say it out in the real world(not everybody has the gumption to cite themselves as an example man, you deserve a Pulitzer, Booker, all of them rolled into one)...anyways what also had me so hooked was the fact that he unknowingly in his post had completely and perfectly outlined the state of my life right now(yeah man, i'm getting inspired by you, i'm going to cite myself as an example as well)...

since you guys are still wondering what the hell was in the post, i'll tell you...its about being wasted in the sense that you, your life, your complete existence is going to waste, its serving no purpose, rather you're not letting it serve any purpose...everytime your life, your body wants to serve a purpose, do something, you stop it, you negate its efforts...why?? random reasons man, random totally...you might have a mental block regarding it, you might not just like the look of it on the outside(totally true man, totally true), you might feel its below your dignity to do it, you might feel the return is not worth the effort...you know what the problem with all that is dude?? the problem with that is that you make yourself comfortable in your ignorance...not realising that while you're sitting here feeling everything around you is not worth your participation, you come to the state where you are no longer worth participation in anything...you, your physical state, your mental state(which is btw, affected by your physical state a lot), your sharpness, your capabilities all have begun to deteriorate, they're going to the dogs, YOU(ME) are going to the dogs, you're getting WASTED...

so anyways, this was the general talk...what ofcourse brought me to this topic was the status of my life presently...i'm in a state which can't even be described as passive, that would be meaning too much of action...i have my vacations from college going on...they last 3 LOOONG MONTHS...anyways, so that's the state and i'm wasting all of them...it all started when i got into college...JULY 2006...after 12 long years of CBSE schooling, i was finally outta it, i was in Mumbai, the city where everything is chilled out, you're allowed to be who you want...and i was in a college, finally the institution which signifies freedom...i was so busy trying to embrace this new life, so busy trying to chill out, relax because its college, take it easy that i took it too easy...i let opportunities, assignments, courses, credits(MY FREAKIN HONOURS PROGRAMME) go past cause i thought its only the first year man, who bothers, i'll do everything next year, lets relax for one year, compensate for all the years of schooling...like i studied all those years, put in effort that time anyways?? but no, i was looking for an excuse and this one suited my purpose perfectly...so i passed my entire year, WASTED it all away...finally good sense prevailed and with the start of the new year i managed to get a hold on my life...not just academically(I DID 1 FREAKING CREDIT, THATS IT) but even personally...i hate to admit it but i have to, it's been on my mind for too long...those first months of my college life, right uptil my winter break, i was too casual in my approach towards the people of my college...i found a few friends and a spot for myself in the college(DAMN!!! THOSE HOSTEL STEPS...AARRGGGHHH) and just started to spend all my time there, with those people...all my time...now in case you're wondering what's wrong with that, let me explain...what was wrong was that i got so casual with my life and my new college and classmates and was so comfortable in my situation(IGNORANCE IS WHAT I CALL IT NOW) that i didn't even try to mingle with the rest of them(I REGRET IT GUYS, IF ANY OF YOU ARE READING THIS, I'M SORRY)...i was so happy in my ignorant state(FOOL'S PARADISE, IS THAT WHAT YOU CALL IT??) that i WASTED away opportunities to make new friends and because of that, as a consequence came the WASTING away of all the opportunities the college itself presented to me...if somebody came and talked to me, cool...if i happened to cross somebody while heading to class and back, i'd talk to them...but an attempt to mingle with all the crowd was just not there...
:(

anyways, so good sense prevailed with the start of the new year and i began to start making efforts socially(i remember a coupla them being surprised that they saw me in the foyer, lol) and academically(lol, i did that crap micro-eco test, hilarious shit) but it wasn't enough...i still never ended up doing everything i had planned to do regarding my honours programme simply for lack of initiative and one big big big big word...a word i got properly acquainted with thanks to my friend's post...its called PROCRASTINATION...

in case you guys are wondering, i suffer from it BIG BIG BIG TIME...you will not find another who has the talent of being able to put off all his work for the next time so regularly, so effectively and so STUPIDLY...anyways, like i said i put off my honours programme assignments with my usual attitude, thinking i'll do it next year...then came the prospect of spending 3 months back in my hometown with college closed and i decided to start working, go to the office with dad, learn the ropes...well, i tried, i went for 3 days to the office, sat there the full time BUT...i took it too lightly...3 days and i gave it up, i relieved myself of the duty by saying its too boring, not my interest(which actually it is but that's not the point, i should've done it) and i went back to the comfort of my computer table and chair(which is from where i address you guys right now) and that's pretty much how my life has passed all this while...based on one word...PROCRASTINATION...

so even right now, i'm sitting here, not being able to implement even one thing that i decide and believe me, the feeling SUCKS, totally and completely SUCKS...you know what happens when you start putting off stuff with excuses to yourself...1) you lose the ability to perform those tasks and 2) you lose the belief in yourself that you can do it, you use your excuses as a shield to hide your insecurities about your lack of capabilities(which are totally justified, you've lost it by now, you can't do anything now)...and hence, its like quicksand, you keep falling in it, deeper and deeper, nothing can save you...

i'm suffering from it right now guys and i can tell you on a first-hand basis, DON'T LET IT HAPPEN TO YOU...believe me, you don't wanna wake up everyday not wanting to do anything cause you find everything has a fault here, there, somewhere...remember this, a simple philosophy of life, one that i've only recently got acquainted with...A PAINTER LEARNS TO PAINT BECAUSE HE PAINTS, A SINGER GETS BETTER AT SINGING BECAUSE HE SINGS...A PERSON GAINS THE ABILITY TO DO SOMETHING BECAUSE HE DOES IT...nobody's ever born with the ability to do something, its only practice that enables him to do it...and you know the best part, it's that in case he stops practising thinking he's capable now, he loses the capability...if Australia stopped playing cricket thinking they're world champions, unbeatable(DAMN, they actually are :P) then at the end of a year, they'll be insecure to take on somebody and when they would, they would lose, even if it was BANGLADESH(lol, sorry, bad example, shld've taken a worse team :P)...SUCCESS COMES ONLY FROM SUCCEEDING, WINNERS STAY WINNERS CAUSE THATS THEIR APPROACH TO EVERYTHING, THEY WANT TO WIN ALWAYS...

just in case you guys think that i'm now cured of this problem, i'm not...i've only just begun to realise it, it's only just been brought to my knowledge...otherwise i was coolly spending my life, blissful in my ignorance, procrastinating(i've fallen in love with this word) 24\7, making it a basis of my existence...make no doubt about it, this illness has a cure that is way tougher to find than any of the other illnesses known to mankind...for the simple reason, that the only cure for this is the cure that comes from within you, from your mind, from the mental strength that you can accumulate by everyday efforts...here you can't hire a doctor for an obscene amount of money who's an expert at it, go into the operation theatre and be out of it within a few hours, cured of your problem...here, YOU ARE IN THE FUCKING OPERATION THEATRE ALL THE TIME, operating on your own self, trying hard to do it...cause you're fighting your own self...your mind is fighting itself...and i'm having a bloody hard time doing it...if possible, PLEASE DONT TRY THIS AT HOME...

they say that the first step towards solving a problem is to accept the existence of it...i've accepted it, after a lotta effort but thankfully managed it...the second step they say is to recognize it publicly, put it into words because you have to fight your mind for it...so i put it here, i admit i have that problem...the third step is...shit, there is no third step given, you're supposed to figure it out for yourself...damn, why is life so tough?? i guess it is cause you choose to make it that way(hahahahahaha, sounding like the philosopher from the spiderman series, rofl...)...i guess now i have to figure out a way how to start doing everything today rather than leaving it for tomorrow...they say physical inactivity forces your mind to go onto hibernation and its damn near impossible to come back from physical inactivity...well, i'm going to try it, i've been doing it, albeit unsuccessfully but someday, i'll manage it...you know why?? cause of another saying...because I CAN, I WILL, I MUST...

i cant afford to let myself go right now, there is too much at stake...i have my CAT to give in less than 18 months and that test is the biggest exam of my life...it is the only chance i will get to prove my mettle...i cant afford to let that go just because i feel its not important enough...i'm sure all of you have one such defining moment as well...maybe you've crossed it already, maybe you're yet to...whatever you do, don't sit and idle away the time...

you, me, we were brought into this world for a reason...our existence has a purpose...i'm going to try and fulfill that purpose...

i'm not going to go down in this world out of sight, there is no way i'm vanishing without a fight...i'm going to live on, i'm gonna survive, today i celebrate INDEPENDENCE DAY(lol sorry, that was a bit too much, couldn't help it, i luuuurrrv that movie and specially that speech, it does something to me... :P)

but seriously, i cant afford to be WASTED...

big thanks to all the people in my life who've made a difference in my life...mom, dad, bro, siddhi, saboo, bhai, pragya, sonal(all of you in ur own way), some other ppl i cant name(quite a few names who helped shape my life and make it d shit it is today), loadsa others who've helped in their own way over the past few years by creating some incident which today are all coming back to my memory to combine and push me ahead(you guys probably don't even know about it)...and today, abhishek, who's post was the triggering off factor to release so much that was pent-up, making me see so much, thanks a ton man, i owe you...

the road ahead isn't easy, it never was...the only difference is i atleast now know which road to walk and that the only was is TO WALK...

ciaos,
gRiNcH

P.S. in case after reading so much of this(phew!! i'm amazed at my own capacity) you still have some reserve left, go ahead read d trigger, the original post that made me come up with this one, its a masterpiece...here's the link...
http://life-almost-sux.blogspot.com/2007/04/wasted.html

oh yeah, almost forgot, the time is 6.45 am(:D) 2 hrs man...wat the heck?? it was worth every minute of it...

Ethics, Fairness...how far can you go in business??

2007-05-04T00:38:00.000+05:30

its 4.15 am(how come creativity always comes out in d middle of the night for me??)...anyways, this post is going to be a little educational(DONT LAUGH ON IT GUYS, I'M SERIOUS) but i'll also make sure it's good fun, something interesting...it's something to do with advertising and marketing, which in case you guys didn't know again, is the field I plan to go into...don't you think its a good option?? i mean like i can talk right?? lol anyways...

yeah so, now getting serious(STOP LAUGHING, WILL YOU?? IT'S RUDE :P), this post happens to be a follow-up on a post i read on another blog...it was interesting and caught my attention cause the guy himself happens to have a blog predominantly about advertising...so anyways, the subject of the post was the recently started ADVERTISING WAR BETWEEN JET AND KINGFISHER...now since i'd just written an article about Jet Airways, this caught my interest and so i went onto read it and it raised a controversy in my mind which is what this post is about...so here it is...

to give you guys a bit of background on the event, the advertising war between JET AIRWAYS and KINGFISHER AIRLINES was sparked of by Jet Airways' new marketing campaign which they launched with the event of their renewed look...it's main tagline, the punchline which was the predominant feature displayed on the outdoor hoardings all over Mumbai was "WE HAVE CHANGED"...now Kingfisher's advertising section, in a moment of bravado and increased genius came up with a line to crash the entire JET campaign...right on top of the Jet Airways hoardings, came the Kingfisher hoardings proclaiming "We've made them change"...so they thought they had outsmarted their rivals huh?? Anyways, Jet had to withdraw this campaign for obvious reasons and came up with a new one with a new tag line again prominently displayed on all their hoardings saying "We've flown to New York"...now this line was supposed to indicate the starting of their flight to NEW YORK but i guess Kingfisher wasn't happy with showing their rivals down once so they came up with their own re-invented hoardings, again placed conveniently on top of their rivals' proclaiming in one line "They've flown to New York"...and that is where the war stands as of right now, i have to check for updates...

now my point of writing this post wasn't to bring this war to you guys but to vent my feelings in view of this war...I'm sure we all remember the advertising war the cold drink brands went with a few years back...it started with SPRITE and MOUNTAIN DEW(i'm sure all of you remember the 'DO THE DEW\DOO' piss ad or watever) taking shots at each other and continued on to Pepsi and Coca-cola getting into one between each other as well(I could be wrong about pepsi and coke, not a 101% sure, lemme noe if i'm wrong)...now anyways more than promoting their own product(which ofcourse is the raison d'etre of advertising), they wasted time destroying the image of their rivals while doing nothing for their own...instead of an advertising campaign, it seemed more like a defamation campaign aimed at their rivals...now we have the same case here again and i'm kinda confused...

so fine Kingfisher Airlines' marketing people did a great job spotting this huge opportunity that Jet Airways had coolly left for them to exploit to their hearts content and the campaign was very well executed as well considering that their rivals had to withdraw a campaign that was announcing them going international...but then what did they gain by this?? They themselves do not fly international so they couldn't possibly have been competing for market share...i mean you start a campaign with an objective right??(correct me if i'm wrong) what was the objective here?? just a one-upmanship exhibition?? was that all?? cause if that was it, then i must say, a lotta money poured down the drain for nothing at all...

i find it unfair, unethical, hitting below-the-belt(orite fine, i know these words do not exist in the dictionary of today's businesses but still...) for a brand\company\person(Vijay Mallya is no saint even tho i'm a big fan of what he does) of that stature to stoop to such levels...or was it because the people incharge of the marketing, brand image, advertising of Kingfisher had run out of ideas to promote their own product that they came up with ones to demote their rivals?? i mean c'mon people, this does point to a decline in the creativity standards\lateral thinking of today's advertising minds(though believe me, today's advertising is reaching new levels, the concepts are unbelievable)...everybody who's into advertising, i presume, likes to go forward in everything...their job, their life, their marriage, their financial status, their relationships...so then why go backward when it comes to the approach adopted towards their work?? why would you want to work negatively to somebody else's cause rather than work positively towards your own?? it just doesn't make sense to me...

you might agree with me, you might not, you might not even care, you might have a neutral stance...whatever it is, let me know...i seriously need to get a reality check on this...am i the only consumer feeling uncomfortable with it or are there more?? cause if there are, then i guess Kingfisher just beat it's own purpose...it just created a negative feeling for themselves in the mind of the consumers...

let me know guys, i really need a check on this...if nothing else, just for my knowledge to grow so that i can apply it later when i get into this field...

thanks,
ciaos,
gRiNcH

P.S. just for reference and to make sure i didn't make any minor detailing errors, here's the original post in reference to which i posted this one...

http://adformula.blogspot.com/2007/04/king-fisher-vs-jetthe-ad-war-for-skies.html

HELP ME PLZZZ!!!

2007-05-03T19:43:00.000+05:30

so its 7.45 pm(dont stare in disbelief, i can write even at normal times you know) and this again unfortunately isn't a post like a proper post, don't worry, that's coming too...this is more like a request to you readers...

yeah, so this is in reference to my earlier post...

http://grinchgrinch.blogspot.com/2007/04/am-bored-have-net-gimme-coffee-will.html

so i decided to write some stuff down, make a few articles, earn some cash and i tried to find out how to go about it...now the point is the feedback i got back was like you can't ask for assignments, just write a few articles on a few topics and send them to the magazines...they pick up whatever they like...so what i need help in from you people is...

SUGGEST A FEW RELEVANT TOPICS

just suggest whatever topics you feel are relevant or unexplored as of today that the magazines might wanna publish articles on...

thx for d help,
ciaos,
gRiNcH

Hit by the bus AND Shot through the heart!!!

2007-05-03T03:22:00.000+05:30

hmmm, so its 3.30 am(lol, i guess ill be a freelance clock) and i'm back to my favourite place...BLOGGER.COM(orite fine, not really fave but its one of them)...yeah, so i'd made a list of things i had to post on, was planning on posting on one of them but the past few days have kinda blown me off, hence change in plans and here i am posting on this...so welcome to the world of being HIT BY THE BUS and SHOT THROUGH THE HEART(its a nice song by Bon Jovi) at the same time...its a crazy experience...

right so lets rewind a little and take you guys back to the starting of this...so lets start with an overview and a kinda foreword on the incident...being HIT BY THE BUS(im presuming all of you know what it is apart from the road accident) and being SHOT THROUGH THE HEART(thats a pretty self-explanatory phrase) at the same time is a crazy enough experience but for the latter to happen BECAUSE the former took place is a crazier experience...and just in case you think thats crazy used in a nice way, ITS NOT...its actually crazy meaning in a heart-wrenching way...ok ok, i'm getting ahead of the story, sorry...

yeah, so i was sitting on the net at night(as usual), chatting with my friends when one of them asked me if she could get her friend in our conversation in a conference(i love the conference feature, THANK YOU MSN) and so i said yes, like why would i say no anyways?? right so she brought her friend into a conference and thats when it started...so i already knew a bit about her cause my friend talked about her sometimes but that had NOT prepared me for what was about to come...so she came, introductions performed and we hit it off instantly...like not the way hit it off instantly is with a happy, jolly, outgoing person...this was TOTALLY ON A DIFFERENT LEVEL...

we hit it off like i'd only hit it off once before in my life(DAMN, it must be something with the net and me, seems to create magic always) and where that led to, OMFG, thats one crazy story, not getting into that...so yeah, i'd hit it off like the insane way and though i didnt realise it then that night, it took me a coupla nights to realise it...in fact, i only realised it last night(or maybe day before)...hmmm, anywayz, so we went on talking like crazy(our mutual frnd went mad) and on and on...then we didnt talk through the day but then again, at night, when we met online, again started off and that's how the past few nights have passed...damn, i wasn't able to watch all the movies i was downloading(man, so many movies downloaded unwatched lying, shit) or play HOTEL GIANT, the latest computer game my bro got home(i've been hooked onto it and i can't seem to get enough of it) or even catch some sleep for that matter(yeah right, like i sleep anyways, lol) but BIG DEAL, IT WAS ALL WORTH IT...

yeah so anyways, i realised it like last night and since then, pretty much everything that has been on my mind has had to share mindspace with her\the whole event(whatever you'd like to call it)...so that my friends, is called being HIT BY THE BUS(in case a few of you actually didn't know)...that was the happy, jolly part...now we move onto the heart-wrenching part...

so why is being HIT BY THE BUS causing a SHOT THROUGH THE HEART you may ask...well, the simplest of answers, she belongs to somebody else, has always, will always...so 'DIDNT YOU KNOW ABOUT THAT EARLIER??' dont ask me that question for the answer is YES...i knew about it, had always known about it but i guess we all know what's BLIND...anyways, so that my friends is the pain...for every inch that i got HIT BY THE BUS, i simultaneously got SHOT THROUGH THE HEART...lol, so fine, maybe i'm exaggerating the extent of the pain of the bullet or the hit but basically thats the event that has taken precedence over my life for the past few days...she belongs to somebody else, she knows that AND thank goodness, i knew about it(would've made a fool of myself elsewise) and yeah, managed to stop it in time(WOOHOO, for the 1st time, i'm doing the right thing, its a new experience, lol)...so anyways just felt i had to post this...its kinda random...love you all...

dont worry, i'll be back with something more substantial in sometime, like i said, i have a few ideas i have to blog on...

ciaos,
love,
gRiNcH(oh yeah, its 4 am now, im the freelance clock :P)

P.S. oh haan, forgot to add...DONT GET EMOTIONAL ON ME, ill be over with it pretty soon, atleast so i hope... :P

AM BORED, HAVE NET, GIMME COFFEE, WILL WRITE!!!

2007-04-27T00:30:00.000+05:30

so its 12.30 am(yay, its still evening and i really need to find myself a new starting) and here i'm sitting, deeply entrenched in the swamps of boredom, looking for something to do...its been this way since the past few days and its kinda getting irritating...newayz, yesterday, i decided to take on the task of writing an article(thx bonks, kept me occupied all evening, love u) for a frnd...so anyways, i wrote the article and submitted it to her and yay, she was pretty impressed with it and even the people at her office seemed to approve of it(i hope its true bonks or else im gonna kill ya) so i've decided how to spend the rest of my long boring vacations...

I'M GOING TO WRITE, GOING TO BE A FREELANCE WRITER!!!

yeah, so basically thats my bright idea for this summer break...now i know that this blog is writing only but i plan to do something that helps me earn a bit of pocket money(no harm making money while exploiting ur interest :P) so i spent the entire day today(yay, today was productive again) going through the internet for people looking to hire writers to write articles or blogs or newsletters or anything of the kind. And i guess i ended up signing to shitloads of sites which help people who need writers get in touch with freelance writers, trust me ITS A HUGE COMMUNITY!!

anyways, so like i said, i plan to do that and so this is a post for all you readers to come and show your support...cmon guys, help me out...if you know anybody looking to get some articles or newsletters written or anything at all, i'm here...its cheap labour you know(orite fine, there'll go the americans bawling again because of the outsourcing to India but then, WHO CARES??) and my credibility as a writer i guess lies in these pages of my blog itself...so for all those of you who think i'm worth it and know somebody who has some work, pass them on...and in case you people are hesitant about doing that, fearing I might start blogging less(i know you guys love me), dont worry, you're still my primary audience, you're still priority(rofl, PRIORITIES?? not again man, hahahahahahaha :P)...

anyways so for those who're looking to contact me, the e-mail address is

siddharth.gupta88@gmail.com

mail me anytime, i'm online 24\7, will get back to you pronto...my fees are negotiable(like i'm TOLKIEN or ROWLING, roflmfao)

anyways, thanks guys, come out and show your support...
love yall,
thx,
gRiNcH

P.S. Since my writing seems to evolve from my boredom, the title seems apt!!! :P

PRIORITIES MISPLACED!!!

2007-04-26T03:03:00.000+05:30

so its 3 am(not bad, i'm early compared to my usual time) and i'm totally mindfucked...fine, so of all you reading this out here, please verify if you're over 18 years of age or not...those below 18 years are not allowed to read this post for it contains abusive language(and i dont care a fuck what anybody thinks) and isn't the kinda stuff a kid should read...

right, so getting back to the fact that i'm mindfucked...who, what, where, why?? questions, questions and more questions...i'm sorry people, you won't really get the answer to them clearly...this is a public blog, you guys know the author, my friends know my blog so i can't use names or incidents...just so fucking pissed off that i'm boiling with rage...

ever heard this bullshit line called 'Don't make someone a priority when that person only makes you an option'...well, whoever told you that line or sent it to you as a msg, to all those people, i have only two words...FUCK YOU!!! balls to whoever uses that line...sure it sounds great as a logic and it is the sensible way to live but to apply it in real life, impossible when it comes to the people close to you...

wat do you do...when you make somebody your priority, the other person does the same, everything's hunky dory, then along the passage of time, fucking things change, fucked up shit happens, fucked up incidents take place and VOILA!!! the priorities of the person who's your priority change and whoa baby, ur nowhere in the fucking picture anymore...its like dude, you're no longer a priority so you can just go fuck yourself...sure the other person doesnt say it that way, never will ever coz that person doesn't do confrontations, doesn't like saying things directly, would prefer for them to just keep beating around in the bush rather than say it...but that's not the point coz HELLO!!! thats what you want anyways right?? you don't want the other person to come out and clear out all shit, say it on your face cause then it would all be out in the open and you would lose that person...well FUCK THIS SHIT man cause i sure hate being in that position...and FUCK YOU bitch...

what do you do?? how do you deal with this shit?? you can't afford to talk it out, you can't afford to turn the other person into anything less than a priority coz that's one of the biggest truths, facts of your life, it's one of the foundations your whole fucking life is based on, without it part of your identity would totally disappear...and you get pissed everyday cause everyday, in everyway possible, you're reminded of the fact that YOU'RE JUST A FUCKING OPTION BITCH, NOTHING MORE!!! yeah re, i know it, i've accepted it, been that way for coupla years now, ever heard me complain?? no, i can't cause i can't bring it out into the open, i can't confront you with it coz i'm fucking afraid of you no longer being there...

i guess this is it, just go on the way its going on...just take all the bullshit, dont complain, try and be immune to it but FUCK IT man, its tough...the most fucking worst part of all this shit is that still when you're in the presence of that person, the person behaves as if all's cool, the way it was coupla years back, nothing's changed(and fuck man, that still feels so good, you feel cool, you're so comfortable that way)...YOU THINK I'M THAT DUMB?? sorry, unfortunately for you, i aint, i know shit's moved on and i'm nowhere to figure when it really gets down to anything important...fine, thats the way this shit splatters and i guess i'll just stand and face it...

and you know why i can afford to write all this down here in the blog??? cause that person'll never be ever fucking concerned enough to even read this shit...yay, woohoo...

hmmm, i guess i've let off some steam now so its ok, i guess i can put up with this shit for some more years to come...phew!! i love blogging...

ciaos,
gRiNcH

P.S. in case u ppl trying to make random guesses, just forget it, no use, no point...waste of time...LIFE IS A FUCKING WASTE OF TIME!!!

PAR EXCELLENCE!!!

2007-04-24T05:20:00.000+05:30

so, its 5.30 am again and i'm wide awake(hasn't this starting become kinda boring??)...jus been through one of the most exhilirating rides of my life...i'm kinda not being able to come up with words to describe what i've just been through for none of them sound as grand, as great or sound as if they can do any justice to the subject of my praise...

the subject in question is a movie or to be specific, a series of movies...i don't know how many of you are movie buffs out here and how many would agree with me but in my opinion, this is the best movie series that has come out till date...there is no comparison, no other even remotely close...a series that took 9 years to make, a series that pumped in 200 million $ into the economy of the country in which it was filmed, a series who's trailer was downloaded by the millions within 24 hrs of its release...there is but one such series...the greatest, the supreme...THE LORD OF THE RINGS...

whether any of you agree with me or not, i believe this has to be the greatest cinematic creation of man...i personally never enjoyed reading or watching fantasy fiction...i still havent read or seen the HARRY POTTER series...and hence, i was always in a no-no mindset about watching THE LORD OF THE RINGS...but here i am today, 4 yrs since the series came out and i've just seen it and i can't stop gushing all about it...

SUPREME, MAGNUM OPUS like no other, FLAWLESS, MASTERPIECE...only few of the words that can be used to describe the series...but make no mistake, none of these words are grand enough or powerful enough to be used alone as an adjective for the series...for that is what THE LORD OF THE RINGS is about...POWER, be it through the use of large-scale graphics engines to show epic-proportion wars or POWER simply through the emotions of the characters in the series...very rarely do you come across a movie which manages to maintain the fine balance between showing an epic, putting you in awe of the larger-than-life depiction of the epic and yet being able to show the characters as the mainstay of the series...for it is true, if the characters, each one of them, had not been given as powerful a role as was given, this series would've remained just yet another war movie set in another world, another time...

the 1st movie starts off slowly and 30 mins into it and you feel like you're watching just any other ordinary movie...yet from there on, its like a journey, you feel yourself lifting and going along with the story...you can't bear to leave the movie midway or even pause it(for all those who saw it on d tv or the comp) for you just cannot afford to let the flow of the story break...you're so caught up in it, you forget your hunger, thirst(well, i forgot it and thats unusual) you just want to go on with the movie, you want it to keep going on for you are enjoying the journey thoroughly...

newayz, nething else i say would probably either turn philosophical, childish or merely plagiarised from somewhere else...

so, just one word...if you haven't seen it, JUST GO WATCH IT.

just watch it man, just watch it, you'll never regret it

ciaos,
gRiNcH

LIFE and LOVE!!!

2007-04-18T04:16:00.000+05:30

heya ppl, so its 4.15 am again(this has to be my fave time of d day)...jus spent d whole day and nite watching 3 movies...2 were d same kind, 1 was totally different...lol, movies seem to be making an impact on my life in d past few days...so the 1st two movies i watched were CRUEL INTENTIONS 2, 3...dont noe how many of you've seen the entire series, all 3 of them but they're nice movies...anyways, so the last movie i just finished was ONE LAST THING...dont think any of you guys would've seen it but in case you did, you know what i'm talking about...

so for the ill-informed, CRUEL INTENTIONS, the series is about this guy and girl(2 guys and a girl in the 3rd part) who gain the high points of their life by ruining others emotionally and physically...they treat life as a game, treat the other people around them as mere pawns in the game and keep competing against each other, the game being their way to pass time...on the other hand, you have ONE LAST THING, a movie about a young 14 yr old who's got a terminal illness and is on the verge of dying and makes one wish...

here, dear readers, we come back to love...for in the former series, love is the tool used to take advantage of other people, it's a thing made fun of, given zero credence...on the other hand, in the latter movie, you have this kid, in love with this girl and living his last days trying to get to her...now i don't usually get emotional(make that never) when i watch movies but this movie did something man...don't know what it was but it did something...

makes me wonder about the two most often used and abused words in the world...LIFE and LOVE...used because everybody's living, life is all there is to it, its d centrepoint of everything...love because as a saying goes "love makes the world go around"...its the strongest known emotion to mankind, known to create something out of nothing and destroy a perfectly normal human all at the same time...now though people use these words everyday, there are very few who actually manage to value them for what they are, most of them end up abusing it, deliberately or by mistake...

LIFE, the word gets abused directly by all the peace-hating people in the world, all those looking to create chaos, looking to shorten other people's lives, those who don't have any value for it, for what it is...and you have those who abuse it unknowingly...one type of such kinda people consist of those who get into drugs, alcohol, let it run their lives, base their existence on it...

LOVE, the word follows a similiar pattern...there are those who abuse it with intention, fully aware of its consequences and there are those who live life not realising they're abusing the love of the people around them...the former consist of people who use the feelings of another person to fulfill their own goals or to just play around with them for the sake of it(it sucks but its true), thats where the CRUEL INTENTIONS series comes in...on the other hand you have people built emotionally challenged, people who just cannot make sense of the love they receive from people around them, who find it awkward to be in the presence of love and hence end up insulting the emotion and the person who feels it...

so anyways, this was just a random thought process, felt kinda heavy after that movie, guess i needed to offload my thoughts, thx to blogging...woohoo...

ciaos,
LIFE, LOVE and LUCK to yall,
gRiNcH

P.S. i did finish downloading PLEDGE THIS starring PARIS HILTON...the movie was kinda ok, almost a waste of time, she was just about tolerable i guess... :(

I'M IN LOVE!!!

2007-04-16T05:18:00.000+05:30

so its 5.30 am and i'm wide awake as usual, watching movies...but tonight's different, its special...i've just met somebody and i'm in love...woohoo, not exactly love at first sight for i've seen her before but tonight, she looked totally different, she blew my mind off...tonight it was different, all the other times i'd seen her, she was all dressed up, glam doll types...tonight it was like she'd put in an effort to go simple, tone down her style...she looked more approachable, she looked more casual, more like a girl i could relate to...AND I'M IN LOVE with her!!!

so fine, she's way outta my league, i'll probably never make it to her(make that a DEFINITELY never) but BIG DEAL...its good to dream once in a while, hope once in a while coz what would you aim for if you had no dreams...so what makes her so totally unapproachable for me?? well, for starters, she's not from India, she's from U.S. and keeps globe-trotting all over the world...what else?? oh yeah, she also happens to be the heir to one of the biggest hospitality chains in the world...and ofcourse, she's a singer, an actress, a celebrity(and a big one at that)...people, introducing you to the girl i'm in love with...PARIS HILTON...

PARIS HILTON...fine, half the world hates her, the other want to hate her...everybody loves to hate her...they find her too loud, too in-your-face, too unconcerned bout anybody else's opinions and too brash...hello, she can afford to, she's PARIS HILTON...so fine, i agree she's a bit loud and all that but like I said, that's not the girl i fell in love with...owe it to this movie I just finished watching which I just got from a friend...man, to think of it, i'd finished going through his stack of dvds, had picked up the ones i want and was about to leave when he took this last one outta the pack...THX A TONNE DUDE...

the name of the movie's BOTTOMS UP...its not that great a movie, most of you who watch it will probably find it a waste of time...other than those ofcourse who fall in love with MY PARIS...she comes across in this movie playing a character that requires her to deglamourise herself, tone down her dressing, her make-up, look more like the average girl-next-door(if only, if only girls next door were like this, i'd go to the end of the world for the next door :D)...so she does that with such amazing beauty...i mean, i was watching the movie and i couldn't take my eyes of her...she looks so much better and so totally gorgeous when she's quiet and subtle, its amazing...her breathtaking looks(enhanced by the lack of make-up or apparent make-up anyways) made me go crazy...and if anybody's seen her music video NOTHING IN THIS WORLD, they'll know what I'm talking bout...even in that music video, she looked more like the college girl(some college girl, my college doesn't seem to have any even remotely as good-looking as her :( :P )...

so fine, it's almost 6, i better get going, gotta get some sleep...i'm hoping she comes through in my dreams as well :D

watch the movie guys(even the girls if they want to), i've just gone on a PARIS HILTON movies downloading spree, tell you guys how the other ones are in a coupla days...watch this blog for further updates...
gnite(or morning)

ciaos,
gRiNcH

Whatev??

2007-04-14T04:11:00.000+05:30

yo, so here i am, 4 in d morning, listening to music(you guessed it, TIESTO, my god) and wondering wat to do till 5 am(which is till when i have to stay up)...so I decided to blog...one problem?? WHAT DO I BLOG ABOUT?? tough question and i'm thinking and thinking...and i'm still thinking...jus can't seem to get an idea in my mind...

ahh, here goes...let's talk about love...completely random, totally not the topic i would choose but then i've been watching too many romantic movies recently(all d recommendations of one of my stupid frnz :P)...so i saw A WALK TO REMEMBER...so i have to admit, it is an amazing movie, the love in the guy for her is jus amazing...and MANDY MOORE, aaahhhh, takes my breath away...and then i saw SLEEPLESS IN SEATTLE...now in case u haven't seen that one either, lemme tell you, its worth a watch...sure its from 1993 and stars Tom Hanks and Meg Ryan(who arent exactly today's generation's fave stars) but then the movie is worth it...the whole concept of the movie is pretty amazing...

and so i see all these romantic movies and i have a question in my mind...IS IT TRUE?? CAN YOU EVER FEEL THAT KINDA LOVE?? IS IT JUST SOMETHING SHOWIN IN THE MOVIES?? is there a love for a person that you feel where you just go 'I'M WILLING TO GIVE UP EVERYTHING, DO ANYTHING FOR THIS PERSON'...i mean sure we can say yeah, there is, i felt it when i was in 10th grade or maybe 11th or 12th grade(im not saying i did :P) but then we're too young to understand what it means to say EVERYTHING, DO ANYTHING...we're jus so overwhelmed by the emotion coz it's the first time and obviously you wanna give it your everything...but in later stages of life, when you're working, in ur 20s, have experience of the world, a rational mind to process ur feelings and prevent you from doing something crazy...in that phase of life, is it still possible to feel this way?? can you ever be washed away completely by an emotion of belonging towards somebody?? and don't take me the wrong way, there's nothing wrong with being in love with somebody in a lesser degree as well, not everybody can feel the same way...just a thought, never mind...the answer to the question is ofcourse irrelevant coz everybody's got their own experience but you can sympathize with me, i was jus trying to pass the time at 4 am...(no, its 4.30 now, yay)

ciaos,
Sid(gRiNcH)

MY ANCHOR!!! and MISTAKES(as an afterthought)

2007-04-12T03:27:00.000+05:30

so gRiNcH <\3 mistakes, and is realising them nowadays...but what to do, most mistakes can't be set right by just plain realising you've made a mistake...life isn't like that...life is about making mistakes, realising you've made them and learning to live it down...kicking yourself after you make them and looking at them in retrospect and wondering how could you be so bloody DUMB??

forgive me for my randomness, most people won't even understand what's this all about but i do and that's what's important...so this train of thought comes from nowhere, comes outta the evils associated with browsing on the internet...no no, dont think viruses so fast, there are other evils as well, lesser known but more lethal...an example would be the chancing onto a dumb scrap(1 SCRAP, HOW RANDOM IS THAT??) by a person in somebody ELSE's scrapbook and you just happen(JUST BY FREAKING CHANCE) to go through that scrapbook on that very day and read that very scrap by that very person and there goes your brain, off on a complete tangent, veering off into those chapters of the book called MY LIFE which you'd closed down forever, shut them down with a double padlock, knowing that for the sake of your sanity, you should never open and go through them again...but NO, my bloody mind and heart refuse to listen, they go back all the way to those chapters, open them all out, shove them into my face, bring them back from my sub-conscious(where i'd carefully locked them away) into my conscious and make me hate myself again, make me wanna kick myself again...HOW COULD YOU BE SO DUMB?? HOW COULD YOU BE SO HEARTLESS?? HOW?? WHY?? WHY?? WHY????

life, is a queer thing...just when everything is going sublimely, perfectly, without a hitch(and believe me, it doesnt happen all that often with me) all seems cool, ur studies are in order(man, i was actually studying for my boards, sheesh) ur personal life seems to be finding a semblance again, you have a strong anchor by your side to hold you in your place and not let you wander off...YOU GO AND FUCK IT ALL UP!!!

for no reason at all, NO BLOODY REASON, you do it...for some fucked up logic in your mind, for some dumb weirdass reasoning, you hold the anchor by its horns and yank it off and throw it away as far as you could from yourself...your life starts falling apart, you walk astray, roam all over the place, don't seem to manage one correct thing...your friends are calling out, your family's concerned but you just dont seem to give a damn, you think you're all-powerful, can do no wrong and THAT IS YOUR BIGGEST MISTAKE...you completely forget the reason for your semblance and sanity and believe it was actually you(HOW DUMB CAN YOU BE???) who was responsible enough to keep orderly...so you throw her away, without as much as a regard for her feelings or her thoughts or what it'd do to her...NO, why would you care?? you're on a conscience-less, guilt-free trip to NOWHERE...

alas, thankfully, the anchor comes back, after 7 LONG months, having endured all the pain and suffering(both of us, though it wouldn't seem that way for me), still comes back, offers to hold your life again, put everything back in order but NO, you are dense, dumb, foolish...you mistake the coming back as a sign of your greatness, you believe its you who's got the magnetic pull, you take the anchor and instead of rightfully giving it the leash to your life, you call it a mere FRIEND...THAT'S IT??? ARE YOU FUCKING DENSE??? you still don't get it, you're dense and then the anchor reaches the end of its patience, its past its saturation level, it bursts, erupts...but, yet again, the anchor cares too much for you, doesnt pour out all the anger onto you, just says "I'M WALKING AWAY, AWAY FROM YOU, NEVER GOING TO COME BACK...DON'T COME INTO MY LIFE, STAY AWAY COZ FROM TODAY, YOU DON'T EXIST FOR ME"...you don't realise the enormity of the loss, you feel some pain, a little tug at your conscience but not big enough for you to stop and wonder what's wrong...you carry on with life, carry on thinking you'll carry on with it just fine and so you do...but there come days, points in your life when you realise 'Sure I've carried on fine but can you imagine what it would have been if she were here?? How great it would've been??'

these points come but your ego refuses to let you accept their presence, you ignore them as if they never came...you try to be your usual self and try and behave as if the anchor's last words had never been said(14th feb, d day before d boards started...all in vain) but I guess there was a reason those efforts of mine never paid out...they weren't made with the right perspective, the right thought process...they were made merely to get that person back into your life, not to get the person back as your life...

HOW FOOLISH IS THAT?? you realised that you were happy in her presence yet you never realised her presence was what ensured your happiness...you realised that things felt calm, set in place, you felt confident when she was around yet you failed to realise her presence was the reason for your confidence, the orderliness, the serenity...

alas, now its too late, long have the months past, actually come to think of it, a coincidence...exactly 12 months its been since you let go of yourself, you let go of your anchor, of your strength...exactly 12 months ago you decided you were too powerful to need anybody else as a constant, you decided you were so powerful that you would always have people around you, always variables dying to be constants, where you would have the option of deciding their status: CONSTANTS OR VARIABLES??

yet look at you now, 12 months into your self-proclaimed reign...how small you feel in your own eyes, how petty you think yourself to be...from your all-powerful status you've been reduced to a mere mortal, worse off, maybe a mere parasite...looking for other people to live off, a mortal with no feet of its own to stand on, no name of his own to show for his name has been muddied around too much for the people around him he took to be idiots, variables that would always be there turned out to be more intelligent than he himself...atleast they had the common sense to realise what was happening and brand you for it, the lucky ones who had her had the intelligence to hold onto her, never let go of her...you did it yourself, you reduced your once-perfect life into a shambles, ruined it with your own hands, tried to build it again but it kept getting washed away into the sea...all because once YOU decided to let your ANCHOR go...

ciaos...

ssup??

2007-04-04T03:08:00.000+05:30

heya guys, its 3 am and i jus dont feel like sleeping...i guess i should(i havta go to d office in d morning) but jus dont feel like it...went to office today, was a good experience...sat in d creative dept. of d office(oh, in case u didnt noe, its an AD AGENCY) and man, d speed at which these guys work is insane...sheesh, if i cud work on corel or photoshop at even half tht speed, id consider myself a genius...from conception(of an idea, dont think perv :P) to application to actually shooting d idea\putting it on paper to fine tuning it to then modifying it everytime d client comes up wid a fancy to altering d finer details according to which newspaper or publication it goes to finally proof-reading it and then getting d client to approve it to finally sending it to d newspaper...phew!!! and this is jus d creative dept's work, wonder wat all d marketing side entails...

so office is finally on, hence im left wid lesser time to jus hang around on d net and bug other ppl who're online...but seriously man, wat does one do when he has a 3 month break?? i mean u cud take dumb dance classes, u cud sit at home, u cud hang out wid frnz but something productive?? wat do u do?? no company's willing to take u coz they dont want a 2 month employment...its so irritating...newayz, my life's getting better...woohoo to that...

so, office's set up...tht leaves me wid 4 things...sports, music, movies and COUNTER STRIKE...sports i gotta start, prolly play squash, d perfect sport to play...beats d shit outta u, u feel completely spent(again no perv :P) and u can take all d frustration inside u out onto d court...or i could get back to table-tennis which is a pretty involving option in itsef...play half an hour at a stretch and u can see d drop of perspiration running down ur forehead from d sheer concentration of d sport...

so sports done...next we go to music...yay, im back home, i can download music all d time...lets see, d latest tracks im hooked onto r...

Xulfi - Laree Choote(awesome slow number)
Daughtry - It's not over(nice rock number)
ELEMENTS OF LIFE - DJ TIESTO(the entire album of GOD, need i say more??)
Faithfulness - SKin(d original and d TIESTO mix of it, u have to hear it to believe it...cant imagine d transition at all)
Knights of CYdonia, Cant take my eyes of you, etc. - MUSE(pretty unusual stuff, not romance if thts wat ur thinking)
Rock this party - Bob Sinclair(somehow i can lissen to party tracks all day)
WHite horse - Wonderland Avenue(IF YOU WANNA BE RICH, YOU GOTTA BE A BITCH!!!!)
Promiscuous Girl, Maneater(d fast tracks) & All Good Things, Say it Right(d slow tracks) - Nelly Furtado(amazing change in her man, jus too good tracks, beautiful voice and music)
Pray For Me Brother - A.R.Rahman(d GOD of Indian music, he is jus unbeatable, lissen to this track to believe me)
Wait a minute, beep, buttons - PCD(dont noe y all of a sudden hit by this bug)

so thts music done wid...movies?? jus downloading a walk to remember(dumb recommendation by somebody :P), downloaded maid in manhattan, sleepless in seattle(y am i hooked onto d romantic bug??) ghost rider, you got served(d dance movie)...oh and yeah, watch THE NEW GUY, hilarious stuff...

and woohoo, now we're onto CS...yay, im playing CS back in full swing and its gr8, d mouse and mousepad have really made a diff...all u gamers...G5 and QCK+ ROCK...hopefully play like twice a week...yahoo...

newayz, now i really betta sleep...
ciaos,
gRiNcH(Sid)

DANCE

2007-04-02T02:33:00.000+05:30

orite, so im writing this post all fired up and inspired at 2.30 am but seriously...i love dance, watching it and dancing myself(not tht im good at it, jus d casual club dance i guess)...jus d whole act of d body movement in rhythm to d music is jus so freaking awesome...i mean even if ur in a club and r listening to trance, u start headbanging and u want d headbanging to go wid d rhythm rite?? even thts a form of dance...

d original king of dance has to be MICHAEL JACKSON...holy omfg man, his moonwalking has to be d singlemost envious step in d history of dance...never seen nebody do it even half as well as he does it...his moonwalking and his lean(where he looks like he'll jus fall now as he goes closer to d ground) have to be his biggest legacies to d world of dance...check this video out man, is he the best or is he the best???

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1F3HxnqRqQw

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rb8I8-dmAxs

go beyond MJ and u find d others, d hip-hop guys...USHER is one helluva dancer, love d whole hip-hop culture...oh yeah, tht brings me to wat i find d most amazing form of dance...STREET DANCE...d whole crew thing, 2 crews battling each other out simultaneously(like in a rap battle) all moving in synchronization to random music is jus totally mindblowing...watch the movie YOU GOT SERVED and you noe wat im talking bout...these kids jus blow u away man...check it out...if this doesnt blow you, wonder what will...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uFwCk4UPtlM

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7xBxJ805Vp0

orite, coming closer home, there's some people u jus cant help but admire for their insane dance...d 1st name ofcourse has to be SHIAMAK DAVAR...this guy is 40 i think but his levels of energy r a marvel to watch...his dance troupe is arguably d best in d country, it doesnt get better than him...the synchronisation of his troupe, d perfection is insane...and he's d pioneer in india in using fabrics to beautify his dance even further...check this video out from his album, not his best work but an indication...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ebXvnyBVewU

and then i cant help but not wonder at d mindnumbing(coming up wid new adjectives is tough...phew!!) dance of HRITHIK ROSHAN...i mean jeez man, how do you move like that?? sheesh, chuck d no. of girls falling all over him, jus look at his dance...oh, and lest i forget, d 1st 2 of the below given videos have been choreographed by...you guessed it, SHIAMAK DAVAR and his genius at work...d 3rd is by prabhudeva, another genius in India...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fCs787FXKXg

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P08T5y0zbBI

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AsX5qpghlH8

man, believe me, watching a proper dance troupe working in perfect harmony to d music is one of d best sights u can ever see...it blows ur brains out...catch yall l8r...

ciaos...
gRiNcH

Laughing like crazy!!!

2007-04-01T18:56:00.000+05:30

man, i noe im crazy and i always knew im crazy but that one nite was jus way too much...after coming back to bhai's place, d crazy ass session that he, his bro, my bro and i had was jus too much...i mean actually rofling all over d room laughing on such random stuff, d only word to describe it is CRAZY...never seen him in such a mood either and dont remember being in such a mood ever before myself...i mean d randomest of jokes, shers, comments...it was pretty hilarious...dont really noe how it all started...must've been d crazy belly dancer dance...roflmfao...tht was hilarious...

trust me guys, you ever wanna get crazy, u dont need booze, cigs, dope...jus decide to go crazy and sit down wid a bunch of equally crazy people and start laughing...its hilarious and it is so cool man...when i was driving back at 2.30 am to home, was feeling so fresh and wide awake, it was amazing...whoever said laughing is good for health is BLOODY RIGHT!!!

so, gRiNcH <3 laughing and CHEERS to that...:P

ciaos

COOLLLEEGGGGEEEE!!!

2007-03-31T14:01:00.000+05:30

man, its been hardly 2 weeks since iv come back home from mumbai and already missing coll and my frnz out thr...for those who dont noe, im studying in St. Xaviers College, Mumbai...finally finished my 1st yr exams and now back home for a coupla months before the new yr starts...wait, lemme rephrase that, back home for almost 3 LOOOONNNNGGG months!!! :((

dont take it d rong way, i love being home wid my family and d comfortable life...my bro, mom, dad, my comp, my room, woohoo, i love it all...but I MISS COLLEGE!!!! i miss d whole college routine, getting up early in d morning, rushing it and jus somehow managing to make it to class(my coll happens to be pretty crappy bout d attendance) and meeting up wid all my frnz, walking all over college(d stairs make it tiresome but its fun) and then hanging around in d foyer doing timepass, having d daily statutory lollipop(chicken lollipop that is) and d awesome NESCAFE FRAPPE(wat wud i do widout it), wondering how to pass d rest of d day...ITS ONE HECK OF A LIFE!!!

for all those who say mumbai's too tough a place to stay and life is not worth living there, there's only one thing to say: ITS FUN...i mean sure id love to walk into a train compartment and get a place to sit immediately(or even place to stand for that matter) but wats d fun if u dont have to rush in wid a 1000 odd people creating traffic(going in and coming out) and u dont have to hang outta d train for sometime...cheers to d railways(dont noe how id ever reach on time if it wasnt for them)...

d best part(which again people seem to hate for some stupid reason) is d walking...d city is so bloody full of people walking everywhere that you dont really feel odd walking from one place to another...u jus get caught up in d flow and dont realise d time or d distance(unless ofcourse ur walking wid company that walks too slowly, rofl, sorry dear, had to say it :P)...

and then the best part about the city, MY COLLEGE!!! u step into college and its like woohoo, a totally different place altogether...d atmosphere is so different...for starters, there's no STINK of fish or nething else, lol, its a fresh whiff of air all over...and then you have d crazy college crowd, found hanging around in d foyer in hordes at any given point of time...its awesome, d sense of belonging u get...

my 1st yr at coll has been soooo awesome...was kinda hesitant in d beginning and didnt really find d exact crowd i was looking for for sometime(i guess there's still room for improvement :P) but met such amazing people, made gr8 frnz...jus love d chilled atmosphere...motto: YOU ARE WHO YOU ARE AND WE RESPECT IT!!! everybody's got an opinion, everybody's got freaking crazy ass knowledge bout so many things, its insane!!!

I'M MISSING COLLEGE!!! man, i miss d atmosphere, my frnz, d whole routine...gotta spend here for 3 months and no frnz from college(no wait, correct that, 1's there and another's globetrotting) in jaipur...arrrrggghhhhh!!! why couldnt college go on for some more time in a yr?? i mean wats d point of calling it 1st yr if its only 1st nine months(pun not intended :P rofl)...

newayz, so here goes another edition of gRiNcH <3...catch yall l8r!!!

<3 Gaming

2007-03-28T00:49:00.000+05:30

so im back wid another edition of gRiNcH <3...

essentially, gaming means playing a computer game on a competitive level competing wid other fellow people...it might seem kiddish to a lotta ppl but trust me, its an amazing world to go into...we have our own weird ways...for instance, everybody has a nickname\callsign\tag...that gamer's identity is purely based on his nickname...his name, face, details mite prolly not be known to nebody in d community but d moment his callsign comes, he gets recognized...my own callsign is gRiNcH(as u prolly guessed from d blog itself)...d callsign means a big deal to d player, his reputation is based on his name, if he changes his tag, its like creating a new identity from blank all over again...callsigns also allow you ppl to express their creativity and its amazing wat all ppl come up wid...eg being SHAGUAR, Jack the Ripper, SUAR(??) etc...

then there is the love for d game which can prolly rival ne professional sportsperson's love for his game...we like to play d game on a purely competitive level and it is a serious sport and not one played jus for d fun of it, to pass time(tho we do that as well :P)...

and like other sports, even in computer gaming, the greats of d field are revered by fellow community members...ppl like SHAGUAR, POTTI, WALLE, METHOD and loads more r legends and r treated like one as well...my idol in d field of gaming is Danny "fRoD" Montaner from Team Complexity...

and then computer gaming is limited to few games, only those wid multiplayer options...believe me, there is no thrill like playing another human in d same game and then beating him(or in some cases, losing)...its an awesome sense of achievement, d excitement, d craze is jus unbelievable...

like other sportspersons, even we have our gear, of a diff kind albeit...it wud seem pretty stupid for somebody to spend a coupla days trying to figure out between 2 mousepads which one to buy but ask an fps player d diff btw a qck+ and an exactmat and u realise d craze...d insane levels to which technology is driven to make gaming products by leading companies like RAZER and LOGITECH jus goes to show that we're receiving recognition by d world and not being treated like some crazy-ass lunatics(tho we are that to some extent as well) :P

so in my personal favourites, there are two game series that rank top of my list and they are...NEED FOR SPEED and the COUNTER STRIKE series...this post happens to come out rite now coz i jus bought my new mousepad(d STEELPAD QCK+) and my new mouse(d LOGITECH G5) and i cant stop drooling all over it...

oh, and then you have the big international tournaments of gaming, kinda like d WORLD CUPS but slightly more widespread...d winners take home an insane amount of money and a cult status that lasts them till their performance in d next tourney...some players ofcourse rise above that and go on to become legends...like in CS(Counter Strike), you have the great Danny "fRoD" Montaner(didnt i jus mention him a while back?), arguably d best magger\AWPer\sniper in d game of CS...watching him play is like awesome, d way he gets his drags all over d map and his sound sense and OMFG, his UNZOOMS...somebody teach me how to play like that... :P

oh and another thing, one of d biggest signs of a hardcore gamer...the use of SHORT LANGUAGE...instead of laughing crazily at something, ull find us going LOL, ROFL, LMAO, ROFLMFAO, BIG LOL and so on and so forth and we remain expressionless on our face but d use of :), :(, :P, :D, :X never evades us...so if u dont get our conversation, dont worry, its ok, its only natural...LOL

sheesh, i cud go on and on bout gaming...catch yall l8r...
ciaos,
gRiNcH

<3 Music

2007-03-26T09:54:00.000+05:30

so as d blog's titled gRiNcH <3TIESTO is the undisputed no. 1 Dj in the world and has been so since 2002...but he's way more than just that...he's a man wid d most amazing sense of music ive ever seen and after seeing his concerts(unfortunately, not attended any as yet) have to say that he also has d best sense of the pulse of d crowd...in one word, he's GODLIKE!!! His music progresses, falls and takes you on a ride alongwith it, you cant help being driven along by his music...Cant begin to call d insane number of occassions where his music has jus been playing and its helped me get on wid work, get on wid life, stay in a good mood...HE DOES THAT TO YOU!!! even as im writing this blog, there's a TIESTO track playing...

hence there's music and then there's music...d former is d kind that's made up by d rest of the world(no offense to all d other artistes, they're gr8 as well)...d former consists of those artistes that i listen to when i'm in luuurrvvvv, lol...d artistes i listen to when i wanna bang my head against d wall or take out frustration(read that as rock)...d artistes i listen to when you jus wanna sit and let the music hit you(read that as hip-hop wid MAJOR BASS)...there's no stage of my life which i cant use a song to portray or no mood for which i cant identify a genre i'd sit and listen to...quite simply, MUSIC is EVERYTHING!!!

MUSIC also helped me to come to noe some ppl, brought me closer to ppl...for instance, my frnd SUAR...had we not had music and TIESTO as a common passion, we'd prolly never got along so well...so CHEERS to that!!!

gotta run now, be back wid another edition of gRiNcH <3

ciaos, gRiNcH

My first post!!!

2007-03-25T19:19:00.000+05:30

orite, so im late getting into d whole blogging thing but better late than never...never really got into coz could neva figure out wat to write but nowadays jus feel like sitting and jus writing, whether nonsense or nething sensible, hardly matters...hence d whole blogging...gRiNcH happens to be my nickname(thanks to CS, my love) and hence here goes...not much substantial for a blog but nevertheless, its a start, hopefully it'll go onto become something worthwhile...ciaos, gRiNcH

gRiNcH

Peace... a beautiful state of mind...

Loyal to the ROYALS forever...!!!

Indian Cricket, an Emotional Upheaval Unlike Any Other!!!

failure...accepting it...

Mistakes, they just don't get off your back...

I have nothing to say!!!

Change...

the gRiNcH is back...

The Pilgrimage Part 2... God is a Dj!!!

The Pilgrimage...Part 1(Stairway to Heaven)

Mr. Ass and life with him...

retrospection...

Never mind...

Ain't no sunshine when she's gone!!!

Exhiliration unstoppable!!!

<3 Malhar and <3 Marketing!!!

CONFUSED??? never mind, its the only constant...

<3 COLLEGE!!! not a repetition, call it part 2...

Emptiness, Blankness, Lost and NUMB!!!

Music is LIFE!!! Part 2

Beaten by time, qualifications & some guy in another city!!! :(

Music is life(Part 1) !!!

f***ing b*******(statutory adult warning, only above 18)

I wonder...dont answer, it's meant for me...

Miscellaneous!!!

Why're you so happy??

random stuff...Part 1...

Here Without You!!!

The NEW Sound of Music!!!

BLAST FROM THE PAST!!!(Good and BAD)

These streets remind me of quicksand!!!

LOSING MY VIRGINITY!!! It's crazy, it's awesome!!!

WASTED??? NOT YET, I WONT ALLOW IT!!!

Ethics, Fairness...how far can you go in business??

HELP ME PLZZZ!!!

Hit by the bus AND Shot through the heart!!!

AM BORED, HAVE NET, GIMME COFFEE, WILL WRITE!!!

PRIORITIES MISPLACED!!!

PAR EXCELLENCE!!!

LIFE and LOVE!!!

I'M IN LOVE!!!

Whatev??

MY ANCHOR!!! and MISTAKES(as an afterthought)

ssup??

DANCE

Laughing like crazy!!!

COOLLLEEGGGGEEEE!!!

<3 Gaming

<3 Music

My first post!!!

f*ing b*****(statutory adult warning, only above 18)